It got bad again{Stray Kids}

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Since their debut, they’ve always been close, everyone in Stray Kids.

Often cuddling, sharing clothes, sleeping together, sometimes showering together etc.

That was until a year ago. Or, well, they were still close, everyone but Felix.

The boy had been feeling neglected, left out for a long while.

He no longer went to Chan or Hyunjin when he was feeling sad.

He no longer gave his clothes to the others.

Most of his free time was spent in his room.

And let’s talk about his room, shall we? The lights were rarely on, clothes everywhere.

The floor was dusty and really gross, but Felix just couldn’t get himself to clean.

He only ate when he absolutely had to.

The boy had headaches most of the time, his eyes were dull and he had dark bags under his eyes.

Until one day, his life just turned for the better. He got all his happiness and motivation back.

All those headaches were gone, he cleaned his room regularly.

He ate three meals a day, drank a lot of water. He managed to get both rehearsing and exercise into his schedule.

Felix hasn’t self harmed in four-five months!

He’s proud of himself, to say the least.

He’s currently in his room, happily tidying up a few things that are out of place.

Chan gently knocks on the door. ‘Hi yongbokki’ he smiles. ‘Hi hyung’ Felix replies with a smile. ‘You feeling okay?’ ‘Yup! Are you?’ ‘Yeah’.

Chan smiles and leaves the room again. Felix’s smile fades, slowly.

The feeling is back, that feeling he knows far too well.

Numbness.

He feels empty, and he sits down on his chair.

He opens Spotify on his phone, playing music through his headphones.

Music has always been there for him, through his highs and lows.

Music is one of the things that Felix cannot live without.

He spontaneously clicks on Twitter, even though he has been told, over and over again, by many people, not to go there.

As he’s scrolling through his recommended(i don’t have twitter so idk how it works💀), one user catches his eye. leefelix.hatepage.

Without thinking, he clicks on it. The owner of the account is pointing out every detail about Felix, making him look and feel bad about himself. 

Felix has freckles, freckles! He’s ugly, he shouldn’t be a k-pop idol!

Lmao, Felix sounds like a demon when he sings

Why doesn’t he just quit already? No one likes him

Hyunjin is soooo much better than Felix. Felix is fat and ugly

To everyone saying that I’m bullying Felix, have you taken a good fucking look at him or what. He’s so fucking ugly it’s not humanly possible

Felix keeps scrolling until he reaches the first tweet. It’s from the day after they debuted.

Yall know the new group, Stray Kids? All of them are great, except that Felix guy or whatever. He’s ugly asf and fat! He looks like a fucking toddler or something lmao

Felix obviously knows that not everyone loves them, and there’s always gonna be haters, but these tweets, this account in specific, is really getting to him.

Usually, he tries to brush it off. It was harder before, but now he’s learned to love himself, especially his freckles. He sighs and turns the music off.

~two weeks later~

Ever since Felix found that hate page on twitter, dedicated towards him, it’s almost like he’s been getting more hate than usual.

He broke his four months clean last night. It just became too much.

He glances at the ramen Chan prepared for him. Felix sighs, and brings the bowl to the kitchen.

‘You don’t want it?’ Chan questions.

Felix forces a smile. ‘No hyung, I’m not very hungry right now’.

Chan nods, Felix praying the elder doesn’t notice that something’s off.

Although, there’s always a part of him, that silently wishes that he would notice.

‘Are you okay?’ ‘Yeah!’ ‘You know you can talk to me if you’re feeling down’ ‘Of course, hyung’ Felix smiles.

He goes back to his room and lays down on his bed. 

~a few weeks later~

Felix hasn’t been getting any better.

He’s lost a lot of weight, his eyes are dull and he’s tired most of the time.

And the headaches are back, worse than last time.

Since he relapsed, he has been self harming almost every day.

He silently prays for someone to notice before it’s too late.

They are currently rehearsing, and Felix is exhausted, drained, both physically and mentally.

He runs out of breath quickly, he’s weak and very tired.

Felix has a feeling that Chan knows something.

Their leader is very caring and loving, and he notices right away if something isn’t right.

Chan pauses the music. "Let’s take a break" he says.

He doesn't say a five or ten minute break like usual, he just says a break.

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First chapter!! How do we like it so far? It's not my best work, but it's something