Maybe It's Time To Move On. NOT A Love Story!!!!!

Should I Forgive Him

                                                                       ~Brittany's P.O.V.~

I woke up in the hospital and the first thing I thought is what in the world am doing here and what happened between me and Zayn all I know is he walked out of my room last night really mad. Then it’s like boom I wake up here with no one with me. Just great I’m the hospital all alone and I felt like crying plus my head really hurts. I wonder what happened, I looked around for my phone but I don’t see it. Ughhh! Just then Louis walked in man am I glad to see him maybe he will tell me what happened last night.                    

"Hey Britt its nice to see you awake" he said walking over to me. I did said "hi" back but it hurt to talk I don’t really know why though so I just asked him where my phone was so I didn’t have to talk much I could just text him but he said Niall had it. I smiled at what he said because I knew that something happened between me and Zayn I just don’t know what and I don’t want him to have my phone I have way to much on their about him and the fight we had just to top it all off if you know what I mean. I was thinking about all of this and I guess I didn’t hear Louis say something because he waved his hand by my face and I snapped out of my thoughts. After while I got something to eat and told that I can’t go home until Friday but no one told why I was really in here. So I figured they would tell me later so I didn’t think about it to much I can’t wait to go home in 2 days.  I hate this place so much. After a while I had seen all of the boys but Zayn and I almost ask Niall who was in my room right now where he is but I didn’t I don’t think it would be a good idea. He was so mad at Zayn but I had a feeling I didn’t want to know like at all. I didn’t talk I listened. Niall looked at me with a funny look on his face and got up and walked out not saying one thing to me.

The first thing I thought was great I made him mad the person I got the closest to just great.  I laid there thinking about what I could of doe to make him mad but I couldn’t think of anything so I just dropped it. A minute later he came back with my phone and headphones in hand and told me "that it was ok that I didn’t want to hear him complain about Zayn." I wondered how he knew I was thinking that but I didn’t want to know. I just wanted to listen to my music LOUD. Its what I needed I just needed to stop thinking about Zayn and stop trying to figure out what happened because I will never know until someone tells me I am just wasting my time trying so what’s the point anymore --there aint one. I look at Niall but I don’t think he knows he is just looking down at his phone.

My phone started ringing and I look down to find this text from Zayn: I’m so sorry for what happened I didn’t think it would get this bad. I didn’t think you would be in the hospital right now. I have a good feeling you hate me now and I ok with that. Its all my fault that your there if I didn’t get mad and walk out if I just told you that I’m here for you just maybe things would be 100 times better for you right now. Niall is staying up there with you for a little bit longer then Louis will be up. Lou doesn’t want me to come and see you and I understand. Him and Niall wont even talk to me but I’m not blaming you I’m blaming my self. Don’t worry    much love Zayn xoxo.

I looked at everything he said and he is way wrong so I sent this back: It’s not your fault I’m stupid its mine it’s not your fault I’m in here its mine I don’t hate you.....I love you. Don’t think it’s your fault its mine you didn’t tell me to beat my head in you didn’t tell me to cut you was just trying to help.    Love you lots Brittany<3  

After I sent that I laid my phone next to me and closed my eyes I just wanna sleep.

I can’t sleep I can’t stop thinking about what happened with Zayn I need to know. Will he tell me or will he be like Niall and refuse to? There is only one way to find out. "Niall I want to see Zayn"

Niall jumped up and yelled "WHAT?!? NO Brittany if it wasn’t for HIM you would never be here. If he just stayed out of it and let me do what I wanted to then you would NEVER been here in the first place you would be at home getting ready to leave saying bye to your friends and whatever else NOT HERE!!"

"Do what you wanted to?'' what was he talking about?”Look Niall it’s my fight not yours. I don’t know what you’re talking about but I don’t care anymore I WANT TO SEE ZAYN NOW I need to know what’s going on with me and him. One minute he is sitting there talking to him and the next minute I’m HERE and I want to know why. He seems to be the only who cares anymore!!" "NOO HE WILL NOT COME UP HERE!" with that he walked out leaving everything he had in my room. 

I texted Zayn: I need to see you I need to know what happened come see me please No body will tell me. Zayn please.       Love you lots Brittany<3 

 Nothing. No text. Nothing. I felt like crying. I just wanna go home I want Louis. 

I just do think I can forgive him right now. No body will tell me what happened to I cant forgive him can I?