The Love I Deserved

Chapter 3: Welcome Home, Ray Mond!

"Raymundo! Come on let's go K's looking for you." Said Randy as he approached me after the event.

"Where is he?"

"At the cubby, everyone is going there right now. CG meeting."

"Oh, should I really go?" I don't think I should attend their meeting.

"Of course, you're part of the family!"

I just smiled at him. I wish I really am.

He put his hand around my waist then guided me to his car.

"Wow this is your car now?"

"Yeah, you like it? You can ride with me or ride me if you want. HEE"

"What are you saying Randy? First of all, don't giggle. You know that I'm a sponge! I might pick up your stupid giggle!"

"HUH first of all I don't giggle, I'm a man. Man don't giggle around here, aight? I'm a gangster. I shoot cops everyday. Ok?" Then we entered his car.

"Yeah yeah. Big, macho, shooter, gangster." We both laughed then he started driving.

I texted April saying I'm with Randy as I cannot see her after the party and we are now going to the compound. She replied saying she's with Ramee and they're almost there.

"Ramee and April are doing good I guess?" I looked at Randy while wondering if we will have that kind of relationship. Will we be together or will we just keep this tension higher?

"What do you mean?" He asked curiously.

"They're still together after everything that happened in the Kebun's Springer."

"Oh, they actually broke up after that but they act like they are still together. So I actually don't even know now."

Randy suddenly stopped near the cubby.

"Before we go, can I ask you something?" He asked. He looked at me seriously. If only I can read what is on his mind.

I just nodded as a response.

"Why did you leave without telling me?"

I looked at him and he's just staring at the front and I know this is not our kind of bantering and that this talk is serious.

"It was an emergency." I lied.

"What kind of an emergency? Why does only K, Ramee, and April know that you left and I don't? Why did I learn it from them?" Is he angry?

"Why are you acting like this? I didn't know I needed to ask permission from you. I told K 'cause he is our leader, and mentioned it to April 'cause she's my gorl, it just so happened that Ramee overheard us that time."

"Why did you leave then? What for?" He calmed down.

"I just needed some time off the city. I needed some time for myself."

"Why? Is it from me? Am I giving you a hard time?"

"No, why would it be because of you?" I lied again.

"Why do you keep on lying? You know that you're not a good liar."

Shit, why does he know me so well.

"You're actually not the reason I swear. I don't know, maybe I just got tired and I needed some time to think."

"Think about what?" Us. I said to myself.

"The gang. This city."

"Huh? How many times do I need to tell you that you deserve to be here?"