Vampires /j.jk/

II

I sighed out loud as I stared at this pic. „It's gonna be okay." Jungkook tried to calm me a little. „Nothings gonna be okay. They almost killed him. He's the only one I have left. I can't lose him." I said frustrated and put my hands on my forehead „I hate it. I hate it so much. These fucking feelings." as is said that the door busted open once again. „Don't you dare to do that." „What's holding me back? I can't anymore. I am just done. We've lost so much why can't I turn it off?" I whispered. Jungkook just stood there looking between Luke and me. Luke walked to me and put his hand on my cheek. „We're not turning it off because where better than that. We're stronger and if we do we just hurt people." I looked into his eyes and thought of just being that bitch and don't listen to him but then the thought of me hurting Jungkook crossed my mind an I sighed again.

After that small mental breakdown I sat in my bed with Jungkook under me. We were cuddling and he brushed his hand through my hair. It wasn't that often when he was with us when I had these bad moments but sometimes it happened to be next to him. I think it hurts him to look at me when I am like that but I just try to defend myself. In the next moment I heard something. I listened to Jungkooks heartbeat fastend because he heard it too. My eyes turned red and I could feel my fangs coming out. „Fuck" i whispered as i had the metallic smell of blood in my nose. I sat up because I couldn't listen to Jungkooks heart beating so fast. My mind screamed but I controlled it pretty well. „Stay still and try to make no sound." I whispered still knowing that the other person could still hear us.

I tried listening but I couldn't. Jungkooks Heart was disturbing me. „Surprise little sis." some thing in my ear whispered and I turned around real quick. „You're not for real?" I Said out loud turning back to Jungkook. „The way you're just focusing on that poor human ist very pathetic sis. Don't you think." after he said that he left. I needed some time to sent my concentration somewhere else. Jungkook just stared at me. „What's wrong with you today? You're never like this." he said worried. And still I could not change my eyes. I turned around and closed my eyes. „I am trying Jungkook. I try to stay as human as I can but still I am none. Some things just get out of hand sometimes." I said and turned back to face him. „Is it okay if I go home? I need to get up early tomorrow." Jungkook asked and I Nod. I went with him im fear something could happen to him.

Back home I laid in my bed thinking about today. Then i heard a knock and once again Luke came into my room. I was angry and a bit confused so I pushed him against the wall looking deep into his eyes. „What's going on here? Jeremy can't be here. He's dead" I said. Now I saw first confusion and then sadness in his eyes. „He's not." „Luke it's no time to joke." I whispered. „How can I let him alone when that monster is out there? You know what we did together. Do you want this to repeat? I was never so focused on his heartbeat than today and I am so fucking afraid to hurt him." I whispered and remembered the time when we lived our vampirelife to the fullest but it all changed In the blink of an eye.