You and Me... Forever

Decisions

I was walking on the park when I felt my phone vibrate. It's Jade but I ignore her call and turned off my phone. At last, she noticed that I left. Bakit pa kasi sa lahat ng taong pwede kong mahalin ikaw pa. Ba't besfriend ko pa. I want to move on but I can't.

How can I move on when I see her everyday? How can I move on when I've known her for a very long time? How can I move on kung siya ang gusto kong makasam? Nahihirapan nako. So I decided not to go home today at pumunta nalng kahit saan to clear my mind. I called my mom para sabihin sa kanya na hindi ako makakauwi and not to tell any of my friends where I am especially Jade.

I decided to go to my grand parents' house, the place where I always go everytime I want to be alone. My grandma died last year a month after my grandpa passed away. I miss them both but I know that they are happy wherever they are now. Eversince my grandparents passed away, no one visited this house again.

I was so lost in my own thoughts but I pulled my sketch pad out of my bag and started to drawing. Drawing is the only thing I know I'm good at. I just realized that I'm drawing her face again. Hindi talaga siya mawala sa isip ko. I'm so pathetic. At dahil wala na akong ibang maisip na gawin, pumunta na lang ako sa tabing ilog malapit sa house ng grandma ko.

I set down under a large mango tree as I stared at the sky. It's so peaceful. Ano ba ang pwede kong gawin para mawala tong feelings na to. Ano kaya kung ituloy ko yung naisip ko. Right! but I'm going to ask permission from my mom first. Alam kong hindi ito magiging madali but I've decided that this is the only way. Kakayanin ko kaya? "Isipin mo na lang na para sa inyong dalawa to."

I never thought that love could be so painful..

Jade's p.o.v

I was talking to Paula when felt my phone vibrate. Napa-smile agad ako nung marealize ko kung sino yung tumatawag. Of course sino panga ba kundi anggwapo kong boyfriend.

" Hi beautiful" oh gosh he's always making me blush

"Hi baby " I could get used to calling him baby :')

"How are you doing?"

"Great, Me ang Paula just finished cooking our breakfast together."

"So, kumain ka na?"

"Yeahp, ikaw?"

"Opo...

" Soo I was wondering if you are free tommorow night?"

"Are you asking me on a date?"

"I am, Well of course if you want it to"

"Great! Of course I want to.So this would be our first date as a couple."

"It is, so I'm gonna pick you up around 7?

"yeah sure. see you tommorow"

" See you babe, bye ! " Ugh kinikilig talaga ako :")

Wait, where's Paula? I went upstairs to find her but she isn't in her bedroom. I asked her mom if she knows where Paula is but she said she doesn't.

Wait kaya nga phone ka diba? Ugh shut up brain.

I tried calling her but she's not unswering it. I tried calling her again but she turned off her phone. Ugh ano bang iniisip mo Jeanne Paula. I tried calling her many times pero wala pa rin.

I went out to find her we usaully hang out together pero hindi ko siya nakita. Ano bang problema nya. Is she mad at me? Did I do something wrong? I text her for like the hundredth time but she never replied. What if something bad happened to her. No nothing bad will happen to her. Naiiyak nako.

I've been finding her four almost a whole day and it's almost 6 pm.

I don't wanna lose her.

I feel warm tears running down my cheeks. As I sat on a bench chair beside the street.

That's when it hit me that the only place I hadn't gone to is her grandparents' house. I remember her telling me one time that she goes to her grandparents house when she wants to be alone. Why would she want to be alone? Nevermind, I'm going to find her there.

It took me 15 minutes to reach her grandparents house. Buti na lang alam ko kung san to.

As I went inside I noticed that there are many paintings in the room. Napa smile ako. Di ko alam na nagpe-paint pa rin siya kahit di ko na nakikitang ginagawa nya yun. Wait, is that a drawing... of my face?

nilapitan ko yung sketch pad and I was right. Ako nga!

Why would she draw me? I was confused but I didn't put too much attention to it since I'm still trying to find Paula. I didn't find her inside so lumabas ako.

That's when I saw her standing probably looking at the river. Wait is she crying?

I feel the tears running down my cheeks habang papalapit ako sa kanya. I was relieved na okay lang siya peero bat ganon, bat parang ang sakit na makita siyang ganyan.

Paula's p.o.v

I woke up with the sound of birds chirping above me. Haynako, nakatulog na naman ako. And to top that, nalimutan kung iturn on yung phone ko. Stupid me.

144 messages. woah

wait, 115 messages from Jade

2 from mom

and 27 from useless friends.. Great I'm screwed -_-'

I need to stop sleeping exessively. \With that, I stood up and went to nearer to the river. Sigurado na ako. My mom's permission na lang ang kailangan. I won't tell Jade, it will only make things harder for me if I tell her. I know she will be okay without me.

The thought of leaving her made me cry.

I was about to leave when tI felt two arms wrapped around just under my chest, well my breasts.

I was shocked. I was about to beat the sh*t out of that person when I suddenly realized that the person was Jade. As I turned around to face her, she hugged me tighter.

She's crying. I feel bad for making her cry... but she's still beautiful even if she cries.

I wiped her tears as I returned her hug just as tight as hers. She burried her hear in my chest as she continued to cry.

"I hate you"

"I know.. I'm sorry"

"Why did you leave without saying anything? Hindi mo ba alam na whole day na akong naghahanap sayo? I was so worried about you. ANd can you please tell me what the problem is? Hindi mo ba alam na nahihirapan nako dahil lagi mo na lang akong iniiwasan." She said as she pulled out from the hug.

Uh-oh I really made her mad.

"Please don't cry. I'm sorry pinag-alala kita. There's no problem, marami lang akong ginagawa. You know how I can be so busy with my course." lie

"Then why did you just left this morning without saying anyword and you ?"

"Sorry, I just want sometime alone and seeing that you were still talking to you're boyfriend on the phone I didn't bother telling you." Lie lie lie. but I really needed some time alone.

"You know you can tell me anything right?"

"There's really nothing to tell" lie. She seemed unconviced so I continued apologising.

"Sorry na talaga. Please don't cry" I said as wipe her tears from her eyes and pull her into a tight hug.

"Please wag mo nang gawin ulit yon." "I won't . I'm sorry I made you cry"

"It's okay. I love you" she said. Her head still burried against my chest. I know that her 'I love you is different from mine, but at least she loves me. That's enough right?

"I love you too"