You and Me... Forever

heartache.. and a new girl?

J:  Yes, I would love to!

I felt my heart break when she said those words, but what can I do? She can never love me the way romeo loved Juliet. Straight girls don't fall for gay girls right? I just realized na wala na akong pag-asa. Stupid heart who fell for her best friend. Why? Why does it have to be you? . Now I really want to cry in front of her... but of coarse I wouldn't do that. 

I told her that my dad is already waiting for me outside. well, it's a lie...  she then kissed me on my cheeks asI started to walk away. I felt warm tears running down my cheeks. She always makes me cry. This stupid love always makes me cry. I remember that  night when I saw her with a guy . They were making out inside the bar but she said that she was just having fun when I asked her if he was her boyfriend. I cried so hard that night. I can't believe how this love could hurt me so fucking much.

yeah yeah.. alam kong me pag ka stupid ako. Madaling sumuko. but you can't blame me. I don't stand a chance.. anyway, i think she deserves better. I love her so much that i am willing to give up on her just see her happy. 

I was walking towards the hallway oblivious of the things around me. My mind was so busy thinking about Jade and Casey when I suddenly bumped into someone. That's when I saw her. I was like, Oh my God! this girl is beautiful! There's a lot of hot and beautiful girls here in benilde but wow! I mean wow! she has Blond hair, long eye lashes,gray eyes, the sunlight kissing her pale skin made her more beautiful. she's like an angel ...wait , she's not even wearing a make up.. I swear, even straight girls would fall for her. 

Wait.. how long have I been checking her out? 5 seconds?  So, of course, I asked for an apology, .she smiled. . omg, le most gorgeous smile evahh!  then she said it was ok.. with that,  she started to walk away..

 Natulala ako. then I suddenly remember Jade, how could I forget about her? that girl really is different. I wish I could see her again. 

I wake up to the sudden vibration of my phone under my pillow. A text from Jade, I read it.. 

J: Hey cutie, do you mind if you come pick me up? 

Me: ok, pick you up in an hour

J: ok, just don't be  late, we're gonna be late in school, love you :) xxxx

I love you too, more than you'll ever know.   delete delete delete

Me: Ok, love you too:)

We arrived at school 15 minutes before both of our classes start. I was walking towards the classroom when i saw her enter the classroom. Wait is she? i began to feel butterflies inside me. Why am i feeling this way. I bet she's new here. I hesitated whether to go inside or not. I end up attending the class since my professor saw me and motioned me to go inside. 

I sat on the chair in front of her since that was the only chair unoccupied.  

Our  prof. gave us a project and you have to find your partner, Ugh. I hate this, i'm way too shy to ask someone to be my partner so i just waited for no one to come and ask me. i felt a tap on my shoulder. When I looked back, she was smiling at me.

"Hi, im Lauren."

" I'm Jeanne Paula, my friends call me Paula"

" we're you the one  I bumped into yesterday?"

"yeahp, I'm sorry about that, I wasn'tlooking on my way."

"it's ok, I wasn't even looking on my way too."

"Look, I'm new here..."

"Figured that out" I said cutting her sentence

"Well I don't know anyone here so uhm I was wondering if  we could get to know each other?"