My Mothers Lover

Im an Idiot.

I felt guilty.

I was having sex dreams of my mothers boyfriend.

Im the worst daughter ever.

I'm an Idiot.

I gather myself together in my bed and give myself a pep talk. "It was just a stupid dream, it didn't mean anything."

I get up and walk in my bathroom and do my daily morning routine, teeth, toilet and face. After I was finished I did a quick morning stretch and I set out my intentions for the day.

"Today I am going to have a good day." I say to myself and I truly believe that today is going to be greater than yesterday.

I reluctnabtly pull out my journal as I sit back on my bed- I've been trying to avoid cellphone use the first 30 minutes I get up.

I tao my pen against my notebook. I was.. eager?

There was a reason I wanted to check my phone.

A someone rather.

The other night Id give Elias my number so we could hash out details about our birthday. This entire time I was hoping he would randomly text me in some "I just woke up with a hardon because I dreamed about you" type shit.

But who was I kidding.

I gave in, of course and tapped my phone.

1 message from Elias.

Shit! He actually texted me. Wait, why am I smiling??

I unlocked my phone and saw that the message read: I really wanna spend our birthdays together, mines today and I wanna have some drinks with some friends. Bring a friend or don't :))" then his address was pinned under his message.

WOAH, I thought. My heart was beating fast, I was so nervous.

Should I reply??? Well the sooner the better. right?

"cool what time? & you know I'm not legally able to drink?" I thought that last part would get me out of having to go but I was hoping it didn't because I actually wanted to go.

Besides who actually wants until their 21 to drink??

As soon as I set my phone down I hear a *DING*

damn he's quick.

"i wont tell if you won't tell :))"

I ignore what seemed to be like flirting and popped a response.

"what time? & is my mom gonna be there?"

"no she said she has work tonight, and 8"

I actually was relieved to know my mother wasn't coming tonight.

Should I ask what to wear or what to bring I feel like I should.

"Do you want me to bring anything?"

"just my gift"

Gift?? is he 12?

I slammed my phone down and I am internally freaking out. As I start back journaling my phone rings.

It's mama.

"Hola mija" she screams through the phone, one thing about my mexican mother is that she will scream your head off.

"hola mami" I respond. I decided to bring up the party
"vale, your boyfriend invited me to his bday get together because ours are so close, can I go?"

"woah mija he's not my boyfriend" she laughs.

Im so confused???

"No Nadia he's just a guy friend, we flirt but he hasn't popped the question yet."

"ok"

And with that news a smile creeped across my face.