FALLEN ANGEL

15

june 1983

at first, i thought the decision came from the two of us, that we finally decided to be friends and all of that.
even though i was hurt i was kinda happy because i knew this came from both of us and that we weren't  in bad terms.

i thought you were someone who actually cared about me, my feelings.
i was so heartbroken when you told me your story that i took risks for you.
i wanted to help you so bad because i couldn't stand to see you alone, hurt and sad.
i somehow recognized myself in you, and i thought you would understand.
i thought you were like me.
but i guess i was wrong. don't you think?

now i'm writing this stupid letter to you. my unknown lover, someone i never really knew.
now i understand what you were trying to do.
i've become attached the second you were flirting with me and this is where it got me.

you see? how it's easy ? to play with someone's feelings and to let them believe.
let them believe they're loved because all they saw in their lives was hatred and loneliness.

they never knew love, but at that moment they thought they did because you brought them a little bit of love.

finally, let them burn in front of your eyes.
and reduced their hopes in dust.