Between What If

Authors note

!!!!!Warning!!!!!!

THIS STORY CONTAINS SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS AND EXPLICITLY VULGAR LANGUAGE AT TIMES. 

IT IS RECOMENDED ONLY MATURE READERS OF 18 AND OLDER CHOOSE TO READ. THERE IS POFANITY MATURE SCENES VERY MATURE SCENES AND WHAT COULD BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME WHEN BDMS MAY BE INVOLVED ALTHOUGH LIGHT. PLEASE TAKE INTO CONSIDERATION ALL THE CHARACTERS ARE OF LEGAL AGE AND THERE IS NO FORCEFUL OR UNWARANTED SEXUAL ENCOUNTERS. THIS IS A BOOK OF LOVE AT ITS REAL LEVEL OF LEARNING TO OPEN YOURSELF TO SOMEONE ELSE COMPLETELY. ALSO ITS FULL OF STUPID EMOTIONS THAT YOUNG READERS DONT NEED TO UNDERSTAND YET. THANKS FOR  READING NOW ALL YOU 18 AND UP CAN BEGIN. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

  From The Author:

Hi readers, wow i hope there are readers, I feel like I should explain myself before I write this story and also before eyes lay upon these words that to me, have more meaning than one could know.😲😲😲😲🤯

     I have wanted to write a book for so long. I have all these stories in my head that just can't seem to find a middle or an end.
Writing fantasy is a lovely way to release creative worlds and pretend lives of heroes and naive girls who fall madly in love.
I guess when your own life is in need of some excitement turning to this style is fitting.
For me I can't seem to find a way out of my own reality. Really it's awful right now.
Then today I took my own world and put it into question against the forces of make believe.
Then I cried. ,😭😭😭😭
 

I cried because I realized my moments in life are heartbreaking for me, what if...  Yes what if I questioned and sought a different reality  to see it more clearly. To look at this in a way that maybe I can say okay this day happened it could have been worse or better but it is what it is.
Because the true reality is we make our own worlds in life and we control our own emotions. But there's only one life we know of. If this is it would you want to waste it doing anything other than how you've done it so far? Because yes you are where you are because of your own actions. You chose this path this was how you did it because you wanted to.
   

   Choices are always ours before and after the storms and parties of celebrating. But wouldn't it be nice to see the other side of our choices? A glimpse at the other way we could have walked ran crawled through times in our history of being alive?
What ifs are imaginary like dreams that we can fly....... But what if.... and if you could reach the if, would you if you could do it different.  This is one question we all ask ourselves at least once the answer really makes no difference, or does it? 
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I write this story for my best friend and my love;

This first, really means I have to sit and power through the brain farts, book, that I know is the story I was meant to write. Without you I never would have thought to write this story.

So I hope its as every bit of emotional rollercoasters that our time together has brought.

the dedication is to my relationship.
To my life.And my amazing two kids 

Because I can only guess what if.

just Know I'm glad for what is.

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Hope you enjoy this one because I plan to put all I have into every word and every sentence. Sweat and bloody fingers may try and slow me but I'm a girl with her big panties on today someone once said. So bring it on.
Thanks for reading.
Any emotional outbursts are welcome. It's okay we all feel things sometimes. 

We are only human.
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