blackhill (discontinued)

visiting hours

this idea is so random, i was listening to visiting hours and then i think of maria mourning about  nat.
idk, it's my first time writing in months, and i apologize if there's misspelling or i write something wrong. english is not my first language so, feel free to correct me. anyways, i hope u enjoy!

"i wish that heaven had visiting hours." said maria. maria was blipped, and when she came back, the love of her life was gone. natasha sacrificed herself for the people she loved.

"she's getting older, nat. she's going to college this year." maria said while stroking nat's grave.

"all the things that she'll learn from me, i got them all from you." maria said while wiping her own tears.

"can i just stay a while, please? the little ones will grow, and i'll still drink your favorite wine." tears rolling down maria's face.

"so much has changed, since you've been away, nat. steve's retired, morgan is in collage, melinda's a teacher, fitz and simmons are married, yelena choose to be an agent, mack's the new director, and i'm retired. i know, i know, if you were here you would say 'the fuck maria?! just because i'm gone that doesn't mean you should retired, you should work, idk, so you don't grieve about me all the time.' but i can't, nat. i can't focus on work when all i could think of is you."

"what would you do in my situation, tasha? i haven't a clue how i'd even raise her, what would you do? 'cause you always do what's right." maria said, smiling because of the last sentence, remembering how natasha would always do what's right even if that means breaking orders.

"can we just talk a while until all my worries disappear? i'm scared of turning out a failure to her, nat. so scared. and now, you'd say 'remember the answer's in the love that we create.' so, i will. i will always remember that." said maria while looking at the car, where their 18 years old daughter is. smiling, maria said, "alia, come here please."

alia came out from the car, earphones in her ears. she sat down beside maria, holding her mum's hand.

"hey, mama. it's me, alia. i miss you so much. i really, really, really wish heaven had visiting hours. and i'd ask them if i could take you home. but i know what they'd say, that it's for the best. so, i will live life the way you taught me, and make it on my own. i'm going to college this year, wish me luck, mama." alia said, tears rolling down her cheeks.

seeing her daughter, maria smiled and hugged her , wiping her daughter's tears and said "i'm so proud of you. and i know mama's proud of you, too."

"i will close the door, but i will open up my heart. and everyone i love will know exactly who you are, mama. 'cause this is not goodbye, it is just 'til we meet again, so much has changed, since you've been away." alia said before standing up and got back in the car.

"i will come back again, nat. i'll always do." maria said stroking her wife's grave for the last time before driving away.

see ya in 6 months 👋