Love For Never

The Mess I Made

I think back to yesterday wishing it had never happened. I made the mistake of falling for the one boy i can never love. If only my heart knew that.

Anyway, yesterday I was at one of my friends party and he was there. (his name is Luke) He was drunk and he flirted with me and of course i like him so i flirted back.

A few hours later we are kissing and he must have sobered a little. He broke the kiss off and started yelling at me "who did i think i was kissing him like that". I ran home not letting myself cry until i shut my bedroom door. Thinking i was so stupid for kissing him especially since he was drunk.

I have to tell my friend when she gets to my house. She will be beyond mad, but it was mostly his fault since he was the one who pushed me up against the wall and kissed me. I hope i never see him again. But that is impossible we go to the same school.

KNOCK KNOCK

I go answer the door dreading the conversation i am about to have.

"Hey Tar" Lea says.

"Hi" I respond, but she knows me too well.

"What? Tell me" This is it I think to myself. Goodbye to ten years of friendship.

"So I went to the party last night and he was there." I cant continue, i am almost in tears.

"Tell me, get it over with." She is trying to be gentle because I m full on sobbing now.

"He was drunk and he kissed me." I say between sobs.

"And thats not the worst of it, when he sobered up he yelled at me. I am so sorry."

She is mad i can tell. Luke is her big brother Anders ex best friend. She hates Luke because Ander found Luke kissing Anders (now ex) girlfriend.

"It better never happen again." She will be mad at me for about a day but she will get over it.

"Dont tell Ander" I plead. Ander would hate me and it would ruin our friendship.

After she leaves i relax a little. Tomorrow i will pretend nothing happened, i am good at that. Lea doesnt know i like Luke so she probably thinks that it was an accident. I mean it sort of was. I will not think about him, i will get over him. Eventually.