Chapter 02
TW: Explicit/Unfiltered Words, Matured scenes and terms
"Huwag diyan" Derek was about to play with my nipples but I cut him off "Masakit, may regla ako"
"Okay" he nodded and caressed my hair "Do you want to stop?"
I nodded
He placed me back on my sofa and went straight to the kitchen. I was getting my things here sa condo for the overnight. Things escalated to him jamming his tongue through my throat . And now I'm just packing my things because he's doing whatever in the kitchen.
My anxiety earlier today was replaced with calmness. Neutral ako sa nararamdaman ko. Tama nga si Derek, may mood swings ako ngayon.
I laid my back because my back kinda aches
"You still want to go?" Tanong ni Derek, he's holding something wrapped by a cloth. Kumunot ang noo ko. What is that?
"Okay lang" sabi ko "Ano yan?"
"Hot compress" sabi niya.
"Impressive" I expressed "Is this a part of your fubu package?"
"Well, I didn't pretty much do this with my other fubus before but you're still my friend so"
Oh... I almost forgot how a big fuck head he was. Or is he still that person? Do he have other fubus than me?
Gosh I have so many questions.
"Okay" tumalikod ako sa kanya para humiga saka huminga nang malalim. Hindi kasi ako sanay sa fubu set up dahil first time ko ito.. tapos.. sa childhood friend ko pa. Paano kung masira ang friendship namin? But he seems to know what to do.
He's right... it shouldn't bother me.
I just have to stay out of it emotionally.
I wanted to rain check for the overnight but I felt bad for ditching my friends. I've been ditching them for like forever. At kagaya nga ng sinabi ko.. I need to stay out of it emotionally so whatever Derek and I have... hindi dapat madadamay friends namin.
"So let me get this straight.... Umamin na si Ava kay Cal then Cal said he has someone he likes?" Nag pa recap ako ng mga happenings sa buhay ng isa't isa ngayon... Apparently, sobrang dami na palang naganap nung graduation nila Ava and Oli. Nakakasad.
"Oo teh" nasa baba kasi sila Derek at Cal kaya nakapag tanong ako.
"Sino naman yung gusto ni Cal?"
Riri shrugged "He's not really makwento so not sure"
"But I bet it's Ate Charlotte" saad ni Maggie "'Di ba Ri tanda mo yun?
"Oo teh! Yung tingin ng lolo mo grabehan" sabi ni Riri
"Who's Charlotte?"
"My Kuya's friend!" Sabi ni Maggie
Patuloy kami nagkwentuhan. We spent the night talking about each other's lives.. playing... eating and taking photos. It's always fun being with them, they're like my family. So it sucks hiding things from them. It sucks being secretive and living a double life.
It sucks more with me and Derek fucking each other.
Pero tama naman si Derek, we're both adults making our own decisions. Medyo blurry pa ang lahat sa ngayon but I bet it would be clear eventually.
BINABASA MO ANG
His Ceaseless Passion (Perpetually Series #4)
Fiction généraleLiving a double life was so hard for her. Living with no means to survive is his biggest puzzle. They were each other's impulsive decision during this peak of their lives- and that resulted to an even more vast consequence than they anticipated.
