Blossomfalls Pain

Blossomfalls Pain Chapter 5

I waited outside the nursury untill what seemed like a moon, when Bumblestripe came in through the thorn barrier. Seedpaw bounced up to him to buy me sometime. I raced off to Jayfeather's den. Brushing past the bramble screen, I came to Briarlight counting herbs.
"Hi-"
"Great StarClan!" She whipped around in fright. "Dont you know not know to not scare me!" She hissed.
"Sorry, any way doesn't that hurt?" Flicking my tail to the rest of her body. Shaped in a awkward right angle.
"No, why are you here?" Briarlight asked.
"Dovewing and Cinderheart are going to have kits, but Dovewing wants to know how long will it be and how many, because she looks half a moon pregnant, even though she just found out today!"
"Wow... then I will get Jayfeather for you." She said. Already dragging herself to his den.

I waited. Finally he appeared from the rock cleft with Briarlight behind him.
"You say Dovewing has just found out she's pregnant, but looks like half a moon pregnant? I will go see to her. But I already knew about Cinderheart."
"Can I get Cinderheart a drink? She was complaining of thirst."
"Why not." He replied, "The moss is over by the pool."
"Thanks." Walking to the pool I grabed a large wad of moss, I squished it flat in the pool, then releasing it. Getting more water for the queens. Then going back to the nursery, I signilled to my apprentice to stop destracting Bumblestripe. She got the message. Telling him one last thing she went to the freshkill pile. Pushing through the small nursery entrance I dropped the wet moss at the queens paws, licking up the water thirstilly. Bumblestripe entered. They had already breifed Jayfeather the plan, so he wouldn't tell him.
"Why are you in here Dovewing?" Bumblestripe asked.
"I just wanted to talk to Cinderheart, play with Brightheart's kits..." Daisy had finnished making a nest for Dovewing. She walked up to it and sat down in the soft nest. "Also I'm expecting your kits, I like talking to Daisy -"
"Wait... did you just say your expecting our kits?!"
"Yes, I did."
"Thats great! How many Jayfeather?" Swinging his head to the blind medicine cat.
"Hold on! Cinderheart, you are going to have... three at the most."
"My goodness!" She exclaimed. Shocked. Moving over to Dovewing, he felt her large belly.
"Dovewing, you will have... five!"
"Five?!" Exclaimed the expectant mother. "Are you sure?"
"Yes, you will have five exactly. Not sure how, since this is the first time in my lifetime that a shecat is going to have five kits. So I am going to ask Leafpool for some pointers." He turned and went looking for his mother.
"Congratulations Dovewing! I will go tell Bramblestar." Blossomfall raced away to the leaders den.
"Hey Bramblestar! Guess what!"
"What?" He replied testilly. Realising I had ran into a senoir warrior meeting, I tried to calm myself down.
"Cinderheart and Dovewing are having kits!" An apretiated murmur rippled throughout the cave.
"When will they be born?" Asked Cloudtail.
"Cinderheart's kits will be born in one and a half moons. Jayfeather said there will be at the most three. And Dovewing looks like she is half a moon pregnant when she just found she's pregnant today. Jayfeather said there will be exactly five!"
"That a lot of kits! Dovewing Cinderheart and Daisy will have there paws full!" Laughed Brightheart. "But can we call the meeting closed, I have to make sure my kits are not up to trouble."
"Sure, meeting closed. I want Cloudtail, Brackenfur and you to stay Blossomfall... you know what this is about." I nodded, only knowing to well what this was about.
"You all know that Bramblestar anounced that I am seeing Jayfeather. Well the reason is that ever since the great battle, it didn't just take a toll on our clanmates.. it took a toll on my mind. All because of Millie." I finnished off bitterly.
"How could Millie do this to your mind?" Asked Brackenfur, "After all she was just here at the meeting."
"Well she drove me to the Dark Forrest." Both toms eyes were wide, "I hated how she abandoned me after Briarlight's accident. But I don't hold it against Briarlight. I just wanted a mother to love me no matter what, even when another kit of hers is injured. She abandoned me, ignored me... hated me."
"But no queen hates her kits!" Protested Bramblestar.
"Well she did, and told me multiple times." I was breaking down now, my eyes swelled up with tears, threatening to fall.
"I had no one in the clan, Bumblestripe was with Dovewing, Briarlight was helping Jayfeather. Greystripe didn't realise what Millie was doing to me. She was tearing me down untill finally... I snapped. Thats when I went to the Dark Forrest. They understood my pain. I trained with a cat called Mapleshade. She was cast out of ThunderClan from bearing RiverClan kits. She tried to get them to their father. But her kits drowned in a flash flood. She got to RiverClan, and explained what happened to her mate, he abandon her aswell. Cast away from everything she loved... she couldn't bear it, and slaughtered him on the spot. His new mate saw what she had done and Mapleshade slaughtered her too. But she had screamed. And all of RiverClan came running. She managed to kill three other cats before they ripped her limb from limb. She corupted me, and planted a seed of insanity in my mind. That seed is still there, but it has taken root, but all we can do its chip away. We cant get rid of it." I saw the shocked and disgusted expressions. I scrabbled away, realising that the toms might tell the clan or worse, they might tell Millie. I whipped around. I ran. For that is all I could do. I am weak, I am not strong, or brave... but a foxhearted, mousebrained coward.