Words And Phrases

If you have seen me in my simplest form, you would immediately know I am not someone who anyone would ever be jealous of or feel envy.

I do not HAVE the "good looks", I do not have the good hair, good shape or even good feet.

I do not even walk like how a woman walks (walk which the society refers to, but what does it really refer to as that?).

I am a very simple person with very simple habits- the eat, work, sleep type of person, sometimes not indulging to any outdoor activities, binge eat or maybe do fasting, communicate or not to communicate, surf the Web or maybe not, sleep all day or maybe not, wash my hair or maybe not.

But I can not seem to understand how some people would try putting me down, me at this lowly state and be given their precious time to be embarrassed.

Several times, it happened to me (that I was embarrassed) in some instances, because of my lack of comprehension, other times, because I just wandered off the normal limits of what others have accepted as decent.

I am not a vulgar person. I do not publicly swear or call names. I do not do exhibition of my private parts. I do not do the prohibited things and activities.

The extremist or the rude people might call me boring. Honestly, I am not into extremes.

I am the type who does not like to be pushed around and I do not like to be pushed to my limits. I do not like small talks but I am not sure if I can stand very long conversations about the stars and history. But I like learning.

I am the type who does not seem to fit in but I had not much problems with it.

I did not have my own world or maybe I have but just did not realize it yet. (Maybe everyone has their own world, maybe they just call it their "social bubble".)

I feel guarded. But it does not bother me much. I still care what others might have to say about things.

I build my defenses against unwanted thoughts and ideas but I do not usually convince people to do the same. I am just acting like a person with some defense mechanisms.

Some mediocre lifestyle or way of thinking you may say.

I view my self as such at times but I do not mind.

I am not a bragart acting humble. I mistakenly say words which I am not supposed to say, other times, I intentionally say them. Again, I am not a bragart but some people just feel intimidated by my presence which I find very awkward. It makes it a little hard to make friends.

I do not feel like life revolves around me. It would be like a grandiose delusion. I do not have those. I do not feel superior. I just feel normal. Normal in the sense that I can make my own choices without hurting anyone or jeopardising my self. I take actions and take the consequences. I am not the type who pass them all to others whenever I am feeling burdened by them.

I am not afraid to be judged because everyone has their opinions of things. I do not have a hold on that.

I say what I am having are privileges. I am thankful to have them.

I was about to write things involving cultural appropriation but should not. May I not say or do such things that would lead me to that.

I remember I said things to people and about people. I know they are wrong or maybe not. Then later on realized that I was wrong but I already did or said things which I can not take back.

But I do not like gossiping but I did speak of things about people.

One of the reasons why I do not gossip is I JUST DO NOT LIKE talking about people. Also, I do not like to be the topic of some people's conversations, I do not like people talking about my private life which is actually non-existent. I feel like I have nothing to hide.