Made Up Noise

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It is not fair on the person, if you flirt with them and then just ignore them. I do think we all do it but it is not fair.  It feels like your just a game, which can be picked up and played with but also ignored on the shelf for a long time. 

It was a summer camp in a 5 star hotel. As the hotel was way outside of the city in the mountains, the group meet in in the center of the city. As we were waiting for the minibus to arrive we talked. Then I went to the shop to get a few items. Black tea, biscuits, gifts, snacks. "I like him" I told my self.  The effect of this is that you become wired around the person. When He sat next to me well my brain blanked out and he got his phone out so I read and crochet. The only sentences we said to each other.

"What are you making?"-him

"A headset case."-me

"What are you listening to?"- me, I just had to think of what to ask. 

The rest of the journey quietness ruled between us. I my mind well that was in motion. 

"Maybe he fells the same?,  How will the camp be? What will the place look like? Will the people be nice? Will we have dinner? How will be my room mates? Does he have a girlfriend? What will the hotel be like? Will there be other people? If yes who? 

We arrived in dark.  My room mated where the same age as me almost, very kind. After dinner some of the group played ' bla-bla' and guess who?. It was fun. There were other people as well. I talked to them.

"How was you day?"-me 

"Good, we went for a hike and lunch in a small place near the woods. The view from the hike was extraordinary."- Mia. They were from the Netherlands. The night was short I went to bed around 12 pm. Which is quite early. 

Okay just to speed things up, I might go into detail in the next chapter but not today. 

In the '2 minute dating' we did talk. I tried to take my eyes of of him, you I had to force my self. If I went some where he would come after me. 

On the third day during our time in the pool part of the hotel, by the way this was the first time as the other two nights we had barbecuing and drama time. He  spent with me more then 1 hrs. We flirted hanged out talked about stuff. Talked about relationships and just before I slid down the slide he said he has a girlfriend. I was shocked the night was going well. I mean I definitely thought he has feelings for me. After the slide I when't for a swim and well that was it. On the way home I sat with him on the bus he talked about other things. When we got to the hotel he ignored me completely.

The next day he did follow me up the hill. Where we did not talk much either.   

What was happening?? On the way home to Budapest I could not sleep on the bus. The trip left quite a few open question.  Did he like me? Did I like him? What just happened? What is going to happen? What would have happened on the last night? Why did he come with me to run? I tried to go through the moments again to understand them better.