I love art but I hate the fact I dont get better much of it
It took 2 years just to get abit better of it
2 people gave me an advice how to get better at it
they said anime is too advance for me told me to take it slow
so I did just that
although it keeps on getting annoying
they said I should try to draw everyday but not pushing my limits
they said I should start at sketches first and try to take things slow
I envy them and everyone else
I hate the fact everyone is better than me despite me trying so hard
what had I done to be punished by the universe itself
its took me years to be able to draw a simple drawing while the others had been already good at it
I hate it
when is it my time to be better than some other people
I wanna be great as people
I want to be as talented as the others
pretty like the others
great like the others
I want to be the best like them
I want to be admired like them
I want to be everything at once like them
I tried so hard to be just like them
but I only end up being a loner
A weirdo
An idiot
I wanted to be smart but I ended up being a failure
its like I was bring into this world as a puppet with no faith no future no purpose
