Before it sinks in ✅

Chapter 6- Wish you were sober

Watanabe Haruto

"Jeongwoo please, help her. She can't stay wet in the rain for hours, she'll get sick," I pleaded to Jeongwoo over the phone, I heard him sigh before agreeing.

It was the 14th of February and as if it was already part of my system, I went to Doyoung's grave to offer him a little prayer. I would also like to apologize for ending things with Rhane.

I went there pretty early but then when I got there, she was already there. She was talking to him as usual

"Oh and Jeongwoo said he'll stop by here later, he asked me to greet you in advance,"

"We actually have a patient, in the same room we stayed in. He reminds us a lot of you, you kinda look similar and we're operating on him on the 16th, wish me luck"

"You're probably wondering why Haruto isn't here,"

"That's actually the thing I needed to talk to you about," I heard her sigh

Then she started crying, I wanted to hug her, I wanted to tell her that everything will be alright but I couldn't even take a few steps to get closer to her

"I don't know what I'm doing honestly, is this what's best for the two of us or is this just a mistake."

"I just wish that you were here, in that way I would've never met him. Then you, Jeongwoo and I could've been workmates," what she said hurt me more than it should

"But then if I never met him, I would've never experienced the happiest days of my life," she added

"It's the same feeling that I had for you. And it just hurts because this time, it's my fault, I pushed him away because eventually, he'll be tired of understanding me in my late-night shifts and my on-call duties then he'll leave or worse he'd catch a sickness and I couldn't let that happen, so I left because I couldn't watch him leave." she cried then I just kinda stood there frozen

I didn't know she felt that way. I didn't know that she broke up with me, for me.

Our eyes met but I'm not sure if she saw me properly since she was crying.

Then almost like the rain was activated, it started pouring down.

The promise.

I couldn't step in and offer her my umbrella, she was hurting and I didn't want to hurt her more but I had to do something, I couldn't let her be in that state.

So I called Jeongwoo and as always, my bro didn't let me down. He came driving in his car, he also brought two umbrellas with him. Before he went to Rhane, I muttered a little thank you to him then he just smiled.

They were going back to his car so I had to make sure to hide myself, out of her sight, to not ever hurt her again.

"She's home safe now," Jeongwoo told me when we met again back in the cemetery

"Do you think she saw me?" I asked nervously,

"No, she saw a guy's figure but thought it was me so you're safe," he affirmed, I sighed in relief

"Why are you hiding from her anyways? It's not like you cheated on her or what," I just sighed in response to his question

When we broke up, I thought she didn't want me in my life anymore but based on what I heard a while ago, she did all of that just because she was scared that I would get tired of her.

She was so selfless that she forgot to think of herself, how this would be torture for her.

So, little by little, I wanted to get involved back into her life, maybe not fully but I wanted to make sure that she'll be fine and that she wouldn't be alone.