mommy fely
10:01 am
mom
are you sure about this Lime? I already booked a flight for two
lime
for two? sinong kasama ko?
mom
of course me? sinong mag-aalaga sayo don? gusto mo bang manganak mag-isa?
lime
ma naman
mom
what? possibility is a possibility
buntis ka man o hindi, I still want to take care of you
last day ng exam mo bukas right? we're leaving right after you finished everything
lime
noted po
mom
are you not going to talk to him?
you're not going to tell him?
lime
I don't know. I'm scared
wala to sa plano ko
I have so many plans ahead of me pero hindi to kasali but its here already
I keep blaming myself kasi imbis na sinisimulan ko na ang pag-abot sa pangarap ko, may responsibilidad na na naghihintay sakin
at the same I'm blaming him for not stopping us from what happened that night
but I can't do that right? kasi ginusto ko rin naman. ( we even did it for the second time || deleted )
ayokong harapin siya because I know my impulsive selfish self will just blame him for everything
ni hindi ko nga alam kung napasa ko ba ang exam na kinuha ko for the past days
I can't focus on two things mom
you know more than anyone how I hate ruining my plans
mom
will you hate your child?
lime
how can I even do that? I can hate myself forever but not my own child mom
I'm not that cruel
mom
at least tell him about your child then
lime
he won't let me go if I do
mom
and that's a bad thing because?
lime
because I don't want what's happening
I know I'm being irrational right now and you can't understand me but that's what I am feeling
takot ako, disappointed sa sarili ko, galit, malungkot... everything inside me is overwhelming
I can't face him like this
mom
okay I understand my daughter
lime
thank you mom for being understanding eve tho I know that you're also disappointed
