TW: discussion of past child abuse,depression,suicidal thoughts etc
"Whenever you're ready"
Touya squeezes the bag of peas, "My dad was....the worst. He treated me and my siblings like shit "
You stay quiet so he can finish
"My mom was even in the psych ward for some time because of him, she's never been the same since. And I'm the oldest, I got the most of it because he wanted me to be his perfect son "
He's crying now
"I was so stressed,I just wanted it to end. And one day my quirk just....got out of hand and I burst into flames. Oh god it hurt so fucking much I just wanted to die...and I hopped I would .But Natsuo found me in the yard and threw water on me before I could,I just remember so much screaming and my mom holding my face,trying to cool me down"
"That must have been terrifying" you say quietly
Touya chuckles sadly, "I was like twelve too,barely old enough to understand what was going on. But my dad just rounded me up into the car to the hospital. Told everyone my quirk went out of control and I was in a coma for almost two weeks since the healing zapped my energy"
He stares at the now melted bag of peas, "It took years for me to even learn how to move my fingers normally"
"Nerve damage?" You ask
"Yeah, still hurts sometimes but I'm used to it. My eyesight is shit,my skin's too tight and I can't stand the way I look. I could never go back to normal. I live in a hell that is my body. My dads right,you'd never be with me if you could see me" he sobs
You sit in quiet contemplation,unsure of what to say or do while he cries
"I—" you pause,gathering your thoughts, "He mentioned therapy"
Touya sniffles,wiping his eyes with the back of his hand, "Yeah,I go Mondays and Wednesdays"
"Ah,that explains why you're always so busy then" you giggle, "Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't want you to think I'm a fucked up mess who can't even control his own brain"
"Hmm" you hum, "I used to go for therapy"
He blinks at you, "For real?"
"Mhm" you fiddle with your fingers, "I always thought something was wrong with me and I was being punished by some divine being for a past life. A teenage girl who couldn't even go hangout with her friends because she's an inconvenience. Because she needs someone to hold her hand just to walk down the street"
You shake your head, "Depression is a bitch . Coupled with the constant need to gouge out your own eyes all the time, my parents never had a boring day. But,I eventually agreed to therapy and that's where I was recommended Mina, besties ever since. There's nothing wrong with admitting you need help, Touya"
You slide your hand into his uninjured one, "It shows how strong you are"
More hot tears roll down his cheeks, "Thank you"
You smile again, "Anytime. You're the first partner I've ever had that didn't treat me like a fragile doll and I love that"
"I don't think you're an inconvenience" He says, reaching out to cup your cheek, "You're amazing"
You lean into the touch, "Even when I knock over glasses?"
"Even when you spill your drink on my shirts"
You giggle, "You're amazing too,and I do love you no matter what you look like"
Touya reluctantly takes your hand and puts it on his cheek,letting you feel the rough skin
Your hand wanders up to his ears,
"You have a lot of piercings" you say,feeling the silver rings in his scarred ear
"Friend of mine did em" he tells you
Your other hand joins its twin on the opposite side of his head. It's such a new feeling for your sensitive fingertips but the intimacy of it all makes your heart soar.
You go down to his eyes,thumbs brushing over the rough under eyes briefly then his nose before going down to the smooth skin above his jawline
"It—it goes further down if you want to see—I mean feel " he mumbles
You chuckle, "This is okay for now, don't push yourself" your thumb brushes his scarred bottom lip then his smooth top one, "Hm"
"What?"
"You have nice lips"
He snorts, "So do you"
"I'll take your word for it" you feel his face a little more, "You're so handsome,I can tell"
He inhale sharply, "M'not"
"To me you are. To me you're a perfect little ball of positive energy and sunshine I want to put in my purse wherever I go"
He smiles at that
"You know what you look like to me?"
"Mm"
Touya cups your face in both hands, thumbs rubbing slow circles into your cheeks. He takes in your face, the beauty spot on the side of your broad nose, the stark white of your eyes, the fullness of your lips.
He's so quiet you get worried but then you feel something on your nose, his lips. It's gentle but it makes you warm
"You're beautiful" he whispers before kissing your nose again then the corner of your mouth, "And I'm so in love with you it makes my body heat go up when I think of you and I have to take a cold shower"
"How romantic" you muse
In the moment, he kisses your lips. Nothing too intense,the slightest of pressure as if testing the waters. It's an odd contrast between his top and bottom lip but it's perfect.
"I....really don't like your dad" you mutter
"Me neither" he chuckles
He rubs your cheeks again, "I want you to meet my parents too"
He inhaled sharply again, "Are you sure?"
"Yeah. I already told them about you"
"You think they'll like me.....like this?"
You peck his lips, "If I like you,they'll love you no matter what you looked like"
He thinks for a moment, "Yeah...I'll do it. If it makes you happy"
You grin at him, "I'm happy to hear that. But now,I really want to go to bed after such a stressful night"
You start to get up and Touya gets up after you
"I'll call Mina to help me into the shower. Let me walk you to the door"
"Are you okay by yourself?" He asks
"Oh yeah,I'm a fucking pro at this by now. And Mina isn't that far away. Don't worry about me"
That puts him at ease, "I'll call you"
He kisses your forehead,his lips still warm
"Get home safe" you smile as you shut the door
Touya lets out a breath he didn't know he was holding, "Holy shit" he groans,feeling weight lifted off his shoulders. As he walks down the hallway to the elevator,he gets a text from Fuyumi asking if you were both okay
He scoffs
Me:
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FanfictionThe non toxic Dabi fic you've been looking for. Touya thinks he'll never find his soulmate because of his looks.... But he does and it seems too good to be true
