Hey guys, soooo any who I've discovered myself through someone else's eyes. It's a guy that I met online, he's funny, makes me feel good about myself and.. he loves me.
Why
Why why why
I just don't get it, no one gets me, but I don't get it. How can he love me? What is so special about me. Scratch the top, I guess I don't see myself through his eyes. I want to love him back because you guys just don't understand how he is with me. He makes me feel loved. And I'm probably so attached to it because I don't get that at home. My mom doesn't like me, she wishes she never had kids sometimes, drinks outside late by herself and her and my dad argue a lot. I told him what goes on at home. He tells me I have to be strong. He would always text me if I was okay or how I was feeling. He had trust issues too. We caught feelings and he told me he doesn't trust anyone. Because of what happened in his past relationships, if I- ouuu those girls would wish they never did what they did.
I fell apart
More than I was before
And I think it hurt him
I was sad and an emotional mess
I thought, like every girl might possibly think, I'm not good enough.
I felt he deserved better
And..
He told me to shut up
"What did I tell you ab saying that?"
"That shit is fucking annoying"
"Make up your fucking mind Lia"
"Yea, you never listen"
"Im bored of this shit, I've told you, the pain doesn't bother me"
"I played with girls and made them think I cared, then broke them"
I don't think I've ever been such a wreck
I don't think I really know what love is
But I want him
I wanted to be good for him
"I want to show you love"
"Oh yeah? You don't even know that you're my perfect"
