The Scattered Thoughts Of A Freak

Things I Wish I Could Forget

There's so many things I wish I didn't remember,

especially that night.

That night where we spend hours,

fooling around,

shameless flirting,

laughing until our stomachs hurt.

It felt so free. 

No judgement.

Like nothing was important to us,

except each other.

It was the chemistry flowing in our bloodstreams.

I felt it.

You felt it.

Everyone felt it.

And when the night drawn to an end,

it was sad, 

tragic even.

Even the fairy tales had to come to an end.

So did this one.

A more depressing ending than the others.

I still remember,

Your arms wrapped around me,

how I could smell your cologne,

when you squeezed me tight.

Then when your lips pressed against mine,

quiet moans,

you cuddled up against me.

Fuck.

And when you let go,

looked me straight into my sapphire eyes,

with your striking icy blue eyes

before leaning in again.

The electricity between us,

we could feel it.

We were invincible.

You and I.

I could feel you smiling against my lips.

Just you being happy with me,

I could swear that my heart skipped a beat or two.

I could be on cloud 9 right now.

I didn't care if I had to be home in five minutes.

It didn't matter if I had to leave.

I felt

Heaven,

Hell,

Space,

Time,

Even the world go through me.

And oh my fucking god.

It felt amazing.

When it was the final goodbye,

your stare was back.

But the way you smiled,

showing all your teeth,

the kind where you melt while looking at it.

And as I was leaving,

you couldn't stop staring at me.

I felt your gaze on me 

and I just couldn't ignore it.

Your eyes followed me out the door.

That was the last I've seen of them.

I wish I could forget all of that.

Never remember our soft kisses,

my clothes smelling like you after our long hugs,

the taste of you on my lips...