Flowers on Graves

BASEMENTS - chapter four

The English project was running really smoothly over the first week, and practice had begun to feel less like a job and more like something I actually enjoy. Quite a few of the players didn't appreciate me being named co-captain on my first year here including Christian, but I didn't even want to play for this team two weeks ago, so things can change.

Our first game was coming up and I had a good feeling about the dynamic our team had, even when the wouldn't listen to me as I called plays. I understand their frustration and they've known Christian much longer than they've know me - and for added benefit he has a dick, which really adds charisma points on for him. I just walked in and was handed the title, so obviously they wouldn't respect me the way they respect him and I didn't expect any less.

We were going to be playing the Marshall Knights, and they didn't have too bad of a line up. On top of that, I couldn't keep Michelle away from me. Every free second I have is filled with questions about 'what is it like to be the first female lacrosse player for the Horsemen?' and 'what is it like adapting to a new team after so many seasons with the previous?'. To be honest, I haven't even mentally prepared myself for that. A whole new dynamic, something that I never thought I would have to be prepared for.

ridin dicks and breakin sticks

abobi: sooo are you excited for your game this friday? i know you're gonna kick ass. also tell us more ab number 14

you mean the pain i can't get out of my side? he doesn't appreciate i stole his solo captain spot if thats what you're asking. the whole team can't stand me, just because coach wanted me to be the new poster child for the school

sham: do you really think he made you co-captain for the appearance?

i have no doubt. why else would he ask me at open tryouts? i mean i can keep up, but playing with guys is a whole different level of difficult. they run faster and hit harder. i bet that's why they dont like me, because i was given the spot out of pure vanity, not because i earned it. i'm probably gonna tell coach i can't handle it

abobi: are you stupid? you're acting nothing like yourself. a few months away from us and suddenly you're unrecognizable. i cannot believe you would say something like that, pangs. you're so fucking gifted and you're gonna give up a captain spot because you're worried some people may not like you? 

i'm just worried what people are going to say and it's really hard to work with a team who doesn't even want you on the field.

sham: they will get over it

abobi: plus, it gives you an opportunity to show scouts how amazing you are. think of the opportunities this will provide for you. don't give up on it so early. everything is going to work itself out. don't worry pangs <3

thank you guys <3 love and miss you both so much. i'll text you guys later, im ab to meet up with christian and michelle to work on our project :)

Walking into the Bryant home I take my shoes off at the door and head upstairs. 

"Michelle isn't here. Didn't you check your texts?" Christian said while looking down at his phone

"Where is she?" I said while grabbing the straps of my backpack and looking around the room trying to avoid eye contact with him

"She had a college visit. She will be home tomorrow. She went with our parents." He said while glancing up at me.

I hated the way he looked at me. After I had told him about being named co-captain he absolutely can't stand me. Which honestly, I don't mind the lack of texts and random comments at lunch, but trying to work on a project and manage a team with someone who doesn't respect you at all, it can be frustrating.