Chapter 2: Two minutes
It seems like I've convinced my mom because she didn't ask me anything else during the journey to high school.
When we got there, I go out of the car and I take my backpack, after from the outside, I say goodbye to my mom moving my hand. The only good thing that I can think of right now, it's that, at least, I know where I have to go because even I'm new class I've been on this school since I was little.
At the beginning, everything seems like nothing has change at all, same doorman looking for the main gates, same plants, the little children running to get to know their new classmates, how beautiful innocence is; same façade, it is as old as always but it makes me feel like this is my "second home" more and less, it must be because I have more than a million memories here..., same paving stone, everything is like always, it feels like nothing changed at all. After my little nostalgia moment, reality hits me when I pass through the main entrance, it reminds me that worst things are yet to come. My legs start shaking and I feel, I can't believe what I'm feeling, I'm feeling butterflies flying around my stomach, those butterflies you used to feel on Christmas Eve or the day before your birthday, same feeling different meaning, it used to be when I was filled of happiness, but now it is because I'm filled of anguish, and this anguish is ripping me inside with every step I make. All these butterflies are making me feel dizzy so I force myself to keep walking and I try my best to hide them all inside a cage, so they will stop playing around my stomach.
"YOU CAN DO IT", I sayto myself, well more than saying I demand it.
But I already know I can't.
I feel so frustrated, why can't I be one of those girls who talk with people so easily, those ones who always smile, who everyone knows about them and those who all people wave at?
But unfortunately I know the answer.
"Because you are not confident at all" I say to myself again.
It's hard, but it's true.
I have a look at my watch, it's taken me only two minutes to get to the stairs and for me it's been like centuries. How am I going to survive?
