Hi, you can call me Salty. I have severe PTSD and pretty much only have nightmares. My therapist told me to start keeping track of them to see if there's a pattern or if there's some sort of trauma in these specific dreams. I'm not the best writer so some things might be a bit awkward in wording and stuff. It's also very stressful to describe my nightmares exactly as is so some things will be slightly different. Dreams also tend to be a bit nonsensical so I'll try to make some sort of coherent plot for y'all from them.
I also know I won't be able to properly explain why and how they are terrifying to me because I'm only mediocre as describing things. But remember that for me these were a full vivid experience. Every bone that breaks, the smells of blood, the sounds of my partner pleading for their life are all things I have to see and remember pretty much every night. Luckily I don't remember all of my dreams and I often forget details but there's some that really stick with me. I'll try to include warnings at the start of each so you can be prepared if something is triggering.
Part of the reason I wanna write them out like this (along with the ramblings in my dream journal right after k wake up) is because I dont think people realize how much PTSD can affect your sleep. If I can sleep more then like 3 hours at a time it's a good night. And if I take sleep aids I usually end up feeling super crappy the next day. So I just get to deal with it. I also might have narcolepsy (my mother has it and I just can't get tested right now) which can cause more vivid dreams so there's that too.
Also you'll notice a girl or woman with red hair in a lot of these dreams. I don't know why she appears in a lot of these but she acts like a big sister in most of them. I have a little facial blindness so I can't really describe facial features or anything for her. I think her eyes are green but I'm not really sure.
I hope if nothing else you can enjoy the weird terrifying stuff that my brain decides to throw at me. My descriptions will probably improve as I continue to write these (if I don't forget about this 😅) so stay tuned for that!!
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General FictionI have PTSD based nightmares and my therapist thought it'd be helpful to write out my dream in case we could find any patterns relating to my trauma. I've realized some of them could make good stories so that's what I'm putting here as one shots. It...
