I woke up because of a noise. A noise indicating that it's already morning. A new day has come. Another day to do the things that we have to do, another day to work around the mistakes we have done yesterday, well for other people they can but for me, I cannot. I just can't do it anymore.
The sound ended already. I guess she already turned it off. I got up and sat on the edge of my bed. I saw the other bullies fixing their bed. They greeted each other with a good morning, well, except for me. It's already a normal, for me, for them, since it happened. So I simply got up and left the room.
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I walked alone going to the university. I decided to go to my class immediately, I was 5 minutes early. I saw Carol entering the door, we're classmates in most of my classes. She immediately sits in the chair beside me. I was about to approach her, but I did not proceed cause I know she's just going to ignore me. It's already expected.
RIIIIIIIIINNNNGGGGGGGGG!!!!
It's the bell. My 3 hour class already ended. For the whole 3 hours no one dared to talk to me as if they don't know me, but I can't blame them because that day happened.
I went out of my room and went to the cafeteria to have lunch. On my way to the cafeteria, I saw him sitting on one of the benches in SJ. He's still handsome, as always, he's still the guy that I fell in love with. I want to go to him and ask him how's he doing but I decided not to cause I know he will not talk to me. I saw him stand up and walk into the direction of the cafeteria, I guess he's also going to have lunch.
As he is walking to the cafeteria, I'm just here walking behind him. Oh, how I wish that someday I could walk again with him side by side, hold those arms and intertwine my fingers with his but since it happened I cannot do it anymore.
When I reach the cafeteria, I saw him going to the table of the bullies. I just decided to sit on the table near them, ayokong tumabi sa kanila, sa kanya, cause I know they're not going to talk to me. Buti pa yung bullies pinapansin niya tapos ako hindi. Para wala kaming pinagsamahan ha! Parang di nya ako nilalandi noon. Kinukulit, inaasar sinusuyo pag nagtatampo ako. Kailan kaya mangyayari ulit yun? Namimiss ko na kasi yun eh, namimiss ko na siya but I guess it will never happen again.
I brought back to reality ng maramdaman kong may bumagsak na parang tubig sa kamay ko. Meron pa pala, akala ko kasi wala na. Sa araw-araw ba naman na pinaparamdan nilang sakit sa akin pero alam ko na mas doble yung nararamdaman nila simula na nangyari yun.
"Sasama ka ba mamaya Thom?" Rinig kong tanong ni Mika kay Thomas.
"Ah, oo. After practice tayo aalis diba?" Pabalik na tanong ni Thomas.
"Oo. Kaya mo na ba?" Nag-aalalang tanong ni Cienne.
"Ewan. Siguro. Pero paano ko malalaman kung hindi ko susubukan diba?"
Sagot ni Thomas at bahagyang ngumiti but I know it's just a fake smile. It's not the Thomas Torres smile that makes the other girls crazy. It's not the Thomas Torres smile that also makes the Ara Galang smile.
