Bts sickfics/ hurtfics

5- insecure namjoon

HEYYY  I AM BACK PEOPLE WITH A REQUEST BY  kkkkk_WriterAtHeart ON NAMJOON BEING INSECURE AND THIS WAS THE LAST REQUEST I HAD SO PLEASE SEND ME MORE REQUEST AND I ALSO WANT TO COLLAB WITH OTHER WRITERS SO I'LL NEED YOUR HELP IN THAT TOO THANK YOU NOW LET'S CONTINUE....AND I GOT VERY ANGRY WHILE WRITING THIS STORY I KNOW THAT THESE STORIES COME FROM MY MIND BUT WHEN I RIGHT I GET ANGRY LIKE KSBDEKEB IDK WHAT BUT IT'S LIKE I AM WRITING EMOTIONS AND GET ANGRY ON THEM... MAYBE I AM WEIRD ANYWAY..

NAMJOON'S POV

"Namjoon is so ugly he doesn't fit in BTS"
" Ugh taehyung was looking so handsome until namjoon came and hug him, I am sure tae would've taken a bath after he touched him"
" Why did big hit choose Namjoon for bts he doesn't deserve to be in BTS like Yoongi can be a better leader "
" How come JUNGKOOK'S idol can be namjoon like what is special in him"
" Namjoon is trash BTS is getting hate cause of him he can't rap, dance, sing, or even lead properly and his english is worst then even people who are learning English "
" What's up with namjoon's body it look like a bean bag he should diet and practice more in everything "....
I was just reading some comments and there is not a single one that doesn't hate on me am I that bad , should I leave bts.. No members won't let me leave. Ugh why am I not perfect ,why i can't do anything right, maybe yoongi hyung should be the leader i am not good for anything.. maybe i should work hard on everything and give the leader position to yoongi hyung.. that's a great idea i should do that only so first I'll wake up early and stop eating that much and go on a diet then go to gym everyday and practice dance, rap and singing more overtime won't hurt that much right?. I also have to work on music so some less hour of sleep won't cause any damages i think ( doctors punching the air and 148 iq let the universe) ok so from tomorrow I'll follow this routine ( lol i can't even follow my own routine and I'll right him following his ).

TIME SKIP THE NEXT DAY AND HE WOKE UP AT 3:30 AM( I WAKE UP AT THAT TIME SO I'LL MAKE HIM WAKE UP AT THAT TIME HEHE)
Perfect time now i can go to the gym till 3:40 am I think i should leave a note so members won't get worried
Namjoon got ready and left the house till 3:45am and wrote a note to the members too.

JIN'S POV
I woke up at 5:00am as we have dance practice at 6 am and have to get ready and eat breakfast  so i got up and went to the members room to wake them up everyone woke up then i went to Namjoon's room just to find a note
" Jin hyung I know you'll be worried that i am not in the room but i had to leave early cause i had some work . Don't worry about my breakfast either I'll eat in a cafè or some where I'll meet you at the dance practice your 동생(dongsaeng) Namjoon"
" Atleast this kid told me " i said to myself and told to others to and we all got ready for the dance practice and left the home"

NAMJOON'S POV
I worked out for some hot minutes and then i practice dance before everyone came
"What are you doing here this early namjoon" the dance instructor said
" I just came to umm do some work on music and had some extra time so thought to practice dance" i lied
" Ooo that's amazing i can teach you in personal now as you need quite improvement " instrcutor said
Am I really that bad was the only line roaming around my brain
" Ok so do you want to get over the songs" he said
" Sure " was the only thing i could say

TIME SKIPPED LUNCH TIME ( FOR INFO BTS MEMBERS CAME AND  WATCHED NAMJOON PRACTICE AND JOINED HIM)

I have no chance that i can skip lunch so i think i should eat a little to not make is sus( AMONG US )
Others are talking and chatting but i just kept quiet and thought to talk to bang pd to give my position to yoongi hyung so i decided to go and meet him after lunch
We all were done with food and i quickly left to talk to bang pd while other members went to vocal classes.
"May i come in" i asked
" Ya" bang pd replied
" I want to talk about something"
"Sure what is it namjoon"
"Umm I have a request can you please fullfill it for me"
" Namjoon if it's about a break so no you already got many"
" No no it's not about that it's about something else it is really important"
" Ok what is "
" Ummm can you give the umm BTS leader position to yoongi hyung... Please "
" What are you talking about namjoon that's a stupid request "
" No it's just i think it's better if he is the leader cause i don't fit at the position (or even in BTS i whisper) "
" Namjoon who said you don't fit at the leader position, you have been the leader for 9 yrs "
" I know pd nim and that's why i am saying that yoongi hyung should be the leader i can't even lead properly, my english is broken and i can't even handle everything "
" Look namjoon none of it is true and i know for a fact that you are reading hate comments and let me tell you they are just mean to you cause you are better then them "
" But pd ni-"
" No pd nim go home and i shouldn't see you at the building till I ask you to come and hand over your phone so you can't read any comments "
" Bu-"
" No buts go home namjoon I'll inform others that you left early"
" Okay" after saying that i hand over my phone and left
Ugh what am I going to do now i messed up everything like i always do the comments were right.. i took my bag and left for home