Torn Between

Chapter 1

I woke up drenched in sweat and terror at the remembrance of the nightmare I just had. Should I even call it a dream or a nightmare. I wondered. Seline and I have been having little arguments here and there since we completed college awaiting our results. It didn't matter if she wronged or I did, all I ever wanted is someone I could own up to, a girl I could be intimate with since loneliness could cause me a great deal of desperation so I had to take up the accused position everytime. I wasn't tired of apologizing to her over and over again even she was the sole fault of our argument, I just didn't want a situation where she wouldn't talk to me cause that would break me even harder. One way or the other, this relationship could be described as toxic. Seline and I got closer in our senior year. I vividly remember a narrative a junior student was giving me about an encounter between she and Seline. I was listening at first but the farther she talked about it, the farther my mind grew from the conversation to images of Seline herself. "How could a gorgeous looking girl like her be into girl" I wondered. Not like who like girls aren't good looking but I felt this one was extremely impeccable with her light skin and silky hair. Who wouldn't want her.
" Are you listening to me at all?"
The junior student asked me. I came back to my senses immediately.
" Oh- oh yes of course... she's a nice girl"
That was the only thing I could mutter.
Lou is a junior student that I had got close these past few weeks. She talked to me about things that bothered her and I gave her my best counsel.
I forgot all about Seline and went about my normal business. It was morning devotion and we were standing in classes. I listened attentively to the message for the day until I was distracted by a sound coming from the next class. There she stood, Seline, whining her body majestically to a rhythm being played in my head whilst our assistant head of Academics was preaching . I giggled to myself realizing how childish she could act. My heart instantly went out to her. She had fine legs with no scars, her skin didn't look infiltrated because she was naturally fair. I imagined her coiled up in my arms sometime. " What was I doing?? Fanatasizing about a girl my friend loved during preaching?" Not right I thought as I pushed the thought out of mind and tried concentrating.
The whole day seemed to move slowly as my worse subjects were being taught the whole day. My heart leapt out for joy as the sound of the siren for announcing the day to be over. I packed some few storybooks into my hand and rushed out towards my dormitory. I was that girl with no mutual friends, just random friends that came into my life only in phases. I needed to get to my dormitory fast enough so I could take a nap before going to shower. My eyes fixed  on my dormitory as I suddenly felt a hand hit my forehead and my books scattering onto the ground. I looked up to see Seline having an apologetical face. " I am so sorry,  I was humming to a tune in my head and throwing my hands about. I really didn't mean to....."
" it's fine don't worry " I said and bent down to pick my books from the floor
" Oh let me get those. She held my hand from the ground and got the books for me"
" I am very sorry " she apologized again.
" it is not your fault. And I am fine"
" Thank you very much. You're Frankie, right?"
" Um... yeah I am and how do you know my name?"
This was the first time I was talking to her. Although I have seen her a couple of times around and heard about her from Lou, I have never had any personal interaction with her before.
" Who doesn't know you. The sleek stud having girls crushing all over her"
" I don't know where this is coming from " I smirked
I do get letters from anonymous people showing their interest in me but I never knew it was a whole school something
I assured her i was okay and hurried off to my dormitory.
We had prep later that evening. I was just going through some of my literature stories. It was a Friday so no one was seriously learning and since the next day was visiting, all you could hear them talk about are the visitors they would be receiving the next day. Some were expecting their boyfriends, others their parents and those who were too sure that they would receive no visitors concentrated on other things. I didn't bother much about these things since I knew my parents would be coming. They always show up for visiting despite their busy schedule.
Just then, I saw Seline entering my class. I probably thought she was coming to look for one of her numerous friends in my class but she moved towards my direction. " Hey Frankie"  she mentioned my name as she got to my table.
I blinked twice in confusion.
" How did you find me?"
" I came earlier but you weren't around so I was directed to where you sit"
" Arhhh... cool, what's up though?"
" Oh yeah, I came to check if you are okay "
" I am very fine "
" And to apologize again for what....."
" Chill, I am cool. Have even forgotten about it"
" Would you walk me to class" she asked me
" Ermm... yeah sure why not?" I got up and as we walked out of class, I realized eyes followed us.
She held my hand as we walked side by side towards the school block in the opposite direction
" Would your parents be coming for visiting tomorrow?" She asked me
" Yeah.. they always come. How about you?"
" They won't be able to come so I would be alone"
" You can join me if ...that's if you want"
" I'd love too" she said with a tinge of excitement in her voice
She ushered me to sit beside her on one of the benches infront of the classroom block. We spent the rest of our prep period talking about each other. She was the only daughter and she had strict parents. An average standard of living and it seemed cool. I seemed to enjoy her company but I was thinking of how Lou would feel when she begins seeing Seline and I together.
Visiting came the next day and my parents met Seline. They liked her from first sight. She was good with elders, I realized. After visiting was over, I decided that there was no need to get closer to Seline any longer. I just didn't want Lou thinking I have taken advantage of what she told me concerning someone she loved dearly.
I have been trying to avoid Seline for the past few days. I either came to prep late or prepped in a different class. I made sure I got to my dorm later and left early enough to miss her.
Friday night came and I felt proud of being able to avoid her the whole week. I changed into my pajamas and covered myself in my blanket. Most of the people in my dorm were asleep since it was already lights out. I felt a body beside me trying to wrap itself into my blanket.
I turned round to see Seline. "Seline?What on earth are you doing here at this time?" I said checking the watch on my hand struck 12 midnight.
" Since you have decided to avoid me all week. I decided that this time was the only time I would find you. So here I am"
" I haven't been avoiding you. Just busy with you know assignments and all" I said trying to think of another reasonable excuse.
" Right... you're the only one who has exam to right. I forgot"she said amidst laughter.
" Okay I am sorry" I said feeling guilty
" I am cool. Just that it's been a while and I have missed you a great deal"
We talked about other stuff for sometime and we gradually drifted to sleep. I wrapped my arms around her as she slept comfortably in my arms.
"Frankie..Frankie!!... wake up it's almost time for breakfast"
I opened my eyes slowly. It's Saturday so didn't see the need to be out of bed so early.
" Frankie... you're going back to sleep? Today's my birthday by the way!"
I turned round to look at Seline trying to confirm the joke but she seemed serious.
" You didn't tell me till now?" I almost shouted
" I was wondering how to tell you since you were always available" she said sarcastically.
" It's not too late to make it special. What do want for your birthday"
" I just want to spend the whole day with you. You know my aunt....?? The one who teaches Economics, she's out of town so we could sneak into the teacher's bungalow and spend the day in her apartment. Just you and I ."
" Sounds like a good idea" I realized I was hitting hard on her and at this juncture, all I could do was to go with the flow.
I still ordered some cupcakes for her. I couldn't just celebrate her birthday with her empty handed.
Seline took the lead to her aunty's apartment which was right beside the school's dining hall. It is illegal to be seen in a teacher's apartment so we ought to be very careful. I told her I would take my bath and join her later. I waited for the cupcakes and I managed to make daddy send me a lariat golden necklace as a parcel. I got the stuff and headed towards the bungalow. I had to make sure no one was checking me before entering. I got to the door she directed and knocked but there was no response. I turned the doorknob and realized it wasn't even locked.
" Seline?? Are you here??"
" Over here" she responded
I looked across and saw a towel tied on her chest. The towel was short enough yo reveal her fair thighs. I swallowed a huge lump that had formed in my throat as I tried taking in what looked like a half naked angel. She was fleshy and every part of her was enticing. I yearned to feel her lips on mine.
"What did you get me?" Seline rushed over to my side to take the things from me. I hadn't even realized I was pointing them to her. She took a bite of the cake " this is soo yummy!!"she exclaimed
She took out the box and opened it to see the necklace "Wow....this is so ..."
She couldn't even end her statement but rather jumped straight into me in a tight hug. I hugged tighter " Thank you so much. I don't even know what to say" she looked grateful
" it's nothing" I said brushing it off. She loosened herself from the grip . "Let me dress up and get here"
Seline came back in our school's tracksuit and a bottle of chilled champagne in her hand with two wine glasses.
" You sure your aunty won't sense you brought in a visitor?" I asked
" she will never know"
We settled down to movies, listened to some music as we realized we were slightly drunk. I didn't even notice it was an alcoholic wine we had taken in. Seline played music and we danced to the fullest. The rhythm changed and a slow song started. She wrapped my hands around her waist as the song went on. My hands started moving at her back and she held me a bit tighter. She kissed my neck and I pulled my her jaw and locked my lips on hers. Our bodies pressed together against the wall, breathing heavily as our lips entwined in each other. Her soft lips kept me kissing her slowly and romantically. I could feel her tongue, wet and smooth. I begun teasing her with my tongue . Her eyes closed firmly as she took in the affection. She gave off a little squeak and I realized she like it. I begun undressing her slowly as I kept caressing her body. This is the beginning of our love story.