Roots and Books

CHAPTER 1; SULLEN

CHAPTER 1;
SULLEN

It was early in the morning, very very very early. Like a, still before the sunrise with the bone-chilling cold; The only thing probably helping me from getting hypothermia is a scarf. Corey knitted it once when we were snowed in some years ago. It probably won't help actually in a couple of seconds because I just arrived at my destination, our river, well actually the river. I played here with Amare every summer when the heat could sear the rocks. I stand right next to the river, my short hair flowing in the wind; The wind swinging off my scarf and letting it fall near me as I collapse onto my knees. Tears streaming down my face without caution as I bend over and hold my breath, dunking my head into the cold river. I need to freeze my mind. Anything to clear it. These thoughts rush in and rush out.

Does Corey not even care what me and Amare think or want?

The thought that Corey is proposing, no, practically forcing us to move into town. Job opportunity and such, what was so wrong with the other jobs? What was wrong with how we lived, we practically had everything free from resources. How can Corey expect us to move in one week after we've been here since I can remember? I've never been anywhere else but here. What about forest-school? Would that make it city-school? I'M AN A1A STUDENT; WHAT IF IT LOWERS!? I suddenly choke up and remember to pull my head up, I gasp for air and shake my head, letting my hair do a sort of forced air dry. I shivered and put back on my scarf. My tears blended in with the water dripping from my face and my sadness pitting in my stomach. It feels like it's turning into rage. Frustration. I huff, then look around, and stomp to a tree. I stared at it. If I punched it and screamed that would probably be cliche and a sign of possible insanity. So, I'm passing that, I calmly breathe and head back home. I'm going to prove to Corey that we NEED to stay at the cabin.

By sabotaging the town house.

I walk back to the cabin and open the door to Corey gasping and Amare snickering. I shrug and look at my suitcase, it's almost done being packed. Corey probably helped. There are some items on the bed and around the house without packing yet. I can hear it from a somewhat distance, maybe I'm just blocking them out, but I can hear Corey's nagging about getting a cold from my wet hair and Amare making jokes about me getting into a fight with a fish and losing. I look at my old childhood backpack and caress the soft fabric in my hands; The bag feels heavy. I wonder why. I peek in it and find the usual, well maybe whatever was usual for me. Some bandages, pocket money. A map of a town I didn't recognize, and a cardboard cutout of a weird drawing, I couldn't tell what it was, so I took it out to throw away. I dug deeper in my bag to make sure everything was out. I felt some lint and a quick pinch. I pulled my hand out quickly and shook it around; I looked at it quickly inspecting it. A papercut? Must be nothing. Maybe I'll dig deeper some other time. I shove the things back into my bag and put them in my suitcase. I look at the bed, at my childhood stuffed bunny. It was so dirty and ragged, but it still held a place in my heart, Corey says I've had it since the moment they first met me. I guess it was a baby shower gift. I wonder why Corey always said met instead of like born. It's weird but then again, Corey and Amare are weird. I shut my suitcase; I'll carry Sire Kanin in my arms; what if he gets cold in the suitcase? So, my arms it is. I look out the window and see the farm empty, Corey didn't plant again after the crops died. It's weird to see it so empty. Our hens were surprisingly already at the new home. Corey is the only one who's been to it and 'setting it up' (buying a minifridge and like, a dining room table with its chairs) for like 3 days now. Corey was attached to the chickens, Amare and I can relate. Bush and Henry are coming with us today since we could never leave our dear pets by themselves. I smile as the stars fade from the sky as I witness the sunrise, I heard in the town you cant see the stars like this. Just makes this whole thing even worse. Amare always says it'll be fine because we get to have AC, a heater, and an indoor bathroom. So I guess it's better than running a circle outside the cabin while it snows to get to the bathrooms. Corey cleared their throat.