Serotonin - NorRay

14

4 months ❄️ (we don't talk about chapter 13 or month 3. let's just say it was very very very very very emotional)

"Look Norman, we've put this off for 2 months now..but we need to discuss that text.."

"I know I know..I'm sorry you felt that—" 

"Shh. We're sitting down and have this discussion." Ray sat on a chair and Norman sat across from him. Ray held his larger stomach in both his hands while giving Norman an icy glare. "As you were saying."

"I'm sorry you felt like that, Ray. I know I shouldn't have said that, and I know I shouldn't even have those disgusting thoughts. But I care about you more than anything."

"Heh..." Ray started laughing. Norman looked up at him as Ray got up. Ray kept laughing and got close to him. 

"Ray what're yo-" Ray slapped him hard.

"SHUT UP! I KNOW THATS A LIE LIKE EVERYTHING ELSE! IF YOU REALLY DID THEN YOU COULD'VE STOPPED, OR BETTER YET, WE COULD'VE WAITED UNTIL I WAS WELL SITUATED IN MY WAKING LIFE! ITS BECAUSE YOU'RE A STUPID ALPHA WHO ALWAYS THINKS OF HIMSELF BEFORE OTHERS!" Ray screamed at him. He sat back down on a chair and took a deep breath before his eyes watered. "i-it was the day I woke up...the day I woke up, Norman..." 

"..." Norman sighed heavily, he hated seeing Ray cry. And he's seen it too much. "R-Ray...I know I should've waited...but I asked before anything happened...you gave me consent, you told me you didn't feel good about it, but you allowed me to keep going.."

"You allowed yourself."

"Ray-"

"You allowed yourself to keep going, Norman."

Flashback~

"I-is this normal?" Ray said. Norman's face was next to Ray's, as he slowly moved into him.

"What do you mean?" He grunted.

"Like..after feeling that pain..is it normal to feel sick?"

"Ray..I don't think that's normal.."

"O-oh.." Ray blushed slightly out of embarrassment.

"That's- that's ok! Just don't freak out, it'll be ok!"

"Mm.." Ray mumbled something else. He then felt Norman slowly release into him. He felt awful and there was now warmth simmering into him. He heard him moan and sat Ray up. "Did that feel good?"

End of Flashback~

"I...I'm sorry..."

"Hah! And I made you a sex addict after all that! Too bad you can't fuck my right now! You know why? Because that night you got me pregnant! That's the consequence, Norman..you need to find them out yourself."  Ray held his stomach again as he walked away into their room. Norman waited an hour to let Ray calm down before knocking softly. He heard a quiet 'come in.' He opened the door softly to see Ray on the floor gent stroking his bump. Norman sat next to him. 

"About...the discussion...I thought the babies weren't a consequence...? We wanted them, right?"

"Yes..we did..but I'm saying if we don't want anymore kids, you could knock me up yet again...I want you to know your mista—"

"Just stop. People always want me to know my mistakes, and I do, I just don't know how to deal with them..." his eyes watered at this point. "I-I need help, ok? I'm not the perfect person who deals with problem easily...I just...I just...." He was full blown crying while he gripped his hair. "I'm sorry...I'm sorry I'm a lousy person, I'm sorry you felt all this pressure and pain...I'm sorry I exist.." Ray has hugging Norman as he cried out every single apology he didn't need to make. "I'm sorry I can't help you more...I'm sorry, Ray.." he whispered into Ray's now wet shoulder as he slowly fell asleep in Ray's arms.