Goldstein

01: Bulls Eye

Ikinasa ko na ang baril na hawak ko at itinutok doon.

1...2... And bulls eye.

I could feel someone's watching me. I trust my instinct. In-alerto ko ang sarili ko. Itututok ko sana ang baril sa kinaroroonan niya ngunit natigilan ako ng pumalakpak ang taong iyon.

He claps again. I know him.

"Bravo. Bravo. Maddy! Bulls eye? For a young girl? Amazing." Nakahinga ako ng maluwag ng marinig ko nung nagsalita siya. I rolled my eyes. Agad lang akong ngumiti sa taong iyon. He's a big fan of mine.

"I used to it."

"I see. It's been 3 years since--" I cut him off. I don't wanna talk about it anymore, not again.

It's been six years since that incident...
The incident that changed my thoughts and what I used to believe...
The incident that changed me... that changed me alot...

"I..love..you. Now..you...know...danger..mafia.It's...up..to...I...know...You're....dauntless " Those words, na pinanghahawakan ko. Those words na kahit na hindi man kumpleto, hindi man tuloy-tuloy, at kahit sixteen pa lamang ako ay alam ko na. I already knew what it meant.

An option, she gave me an option. An option that's all up to me. An option that will change me.

I choose to be one of them. I choose to be here. There's no turning back. Even though she gave me the option to live normal or to be one of the Mafia, I still choose to be in the Mafia.

Having a normal life is good. You could do whatever you want to do. There's no death threats. No one wants to kill you. But I need to accept the fact that I'm a Goldstein. Kaakibat na ng pagiging Goldstein ang panganib. So, whatever I choose, I believe that I'm still in danger.

It's in my blood. Goldstein. I will fight.

I know she will understand me. She will understand my decision.

It's for her and even for me. They will pay, in time. Sa ngayon, I need to focus.

In my case, I would rather choose to be in the Mafia, who exactly knows how to be strong to fight and protect for myself and my family, than to be a stupid normal girl who's weak and pathetic.

Now, I've decided. I choose to be one of our Mafia. I choose to be one of them. I choose to be the 'heiress', The Mafia Goldstein's Heiress.. and there's no turning back.

"Hey, are you okay?" Someone snapped me from my thoughts. My deep thoughts.

"Yeah, Ofcourse, Aiden. I'm Courtney Maddison Goldstein and I'm always okay." Then I rolled my eyes.

He used to snap me every time. Aiden Bradley Goldstein. The one who clapped earlier. Yeah, my older brother. My sweet brother. Oh scratch that 'sweet' word. Sa akin lang 'yan sweet. He's a monster.

"Excuse me young master, your dad." The guy handed the phone to him and Aiden puts the phone in his left ear. Matapos niyang marinig iyon ay agad naman akong tinapik ni Aiden. Gets ko na kung ano ang ibig sabihin noon. Dad is waiting for him.

"Okay, go." Sabi ko.

"See you later princess." Then he kissed me in my forehead. See? Even if he's a monster, he's still sweet but I guess his sweetness is only for me. I wonder if he had a girlfriend. He's definitely a good-looking-guy but with a bad boy look. He's smart and strong. No wonder, if he had one. Well, I don't know. But why did I ended up thinking of his love life? As if I care. Ofcourse, I care. Tss.

I grabbed the gun and ready for one more round.

And there, All bulls eye...

I love it when the bullet hits the target... And fell off.

'How I wish that target is real, a real person, but not an ordinary person, but a person who deserves it. A person who deserves that bullet, a person who deserves that pain, a person who deserves to be a 'dead meat'.

Nakita ko ang target ko na nasa lupa.

'Unfortunately, a life was taken, and in return, it should takes a life too.'

No one knows what we've been through...
No one knows what I've been through...
No one does...

So, no one could blame me. No one.

***

"What's your order 'lil girl?" Sabi ng isang babae na mid 30's ang edad. Lil girl huh?

"Strawberry Milkshake."

"Okay. What's your name?"

"Just put 'Spongebob'." I don't give my name to others. Di ko lang trip. Ewan. Isinulat na niya sa cup ko ang 'Spongebob'. I really don't know why the heck I ended up using 'spongebob'. Tss. That weirdo yellow sponge who lives in bikini bottom. Is that it? Bikini bottom? Well, as if I care. I just saw it in the TV and in my classmates' shirt.

Who would know that this 'lil girl in front of them, has the guts to use a gun?

I wonder how they react after seeing a teen with a gun. Hahaha. I just can't imagine.

"Spongebob, here's your order, thank you." She said. I just fake a smile.

Ang sarap talaga ng milkshake na to. Babalik nga ako sa coffee shop na to. Tambayan ko na to after the training.

Kinuha ko ang aking phone matapos nitong tumunog.

"Why?"

["Where are you?"]

"Coffee shop. Why?"

["Hindi ka man lang nagpapaalam."]

"It's okay I can handle myself, don't worry."

["How. Many. Times. Should. I. Tell. You. That. You. Can't. Go. Out. Without. Your. Bodyguard!?."] Galit na sabi ng taong nasa kabilang linya na buong buo ang boses. He has the authority. Nakakatakot.

"Chill. Okay? I can handle it. Don't worry." I said.

[" No. Shut up. You still can't handle yourself. Matapang ka lang pag may baril ka. Stubborn. Now, go home or I'll fetch you?"]

"Okay, fine. Uuwi na ako." At binaba ko na ang phone.

Is that true? Na matapang lang ako pag may baril ako? I guess, I should learn to defend myself without using a gun.

I guess, I should learn martial arts? That'll be exciting.

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Note: Hello. I just recovered this account and I have written this story back in 2015 (when i was in hs) And i decided to continue this story. Please bear with me cause I revised this story, and this is still on-going. Kaya peeps, expect na may mga wrong spelling din and grammatical error. Thank you. :)

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