I found out
I was shocked
But I regained myself
I found out
I was nine and he was twelve
Sitting in a big room
While we were small
I was scared
Dad was walking back and forth
I finally uttered a word
Brother shushed me
I silenced myself
Dad looked concerned
Couple of minutes passed slowly
Like a wave passing in a hot day
I asked again
Brother looked at me
He whispered soft words
They were dangerous
It stabbed me by the heart
I couldn't utter such unknown word
I asked what it means
He told me such definition
But I knew what it will bring
What any breast cancer brings
Misery and sadness
I was young and naïve
Never thought a disease will mature me
A disease so deadly
I shed a tear
After the first operation
I couldn't press the call button
Couldn't talk
Couldn't check
Brother did
He told me mom was okay
I smiled
Like a boy in Christmas
After the second operation
I couldn't visit
Couldn't look at my mom's sick face
Brother did
He told she was okay
I smiled
Like a girl getting married
After the third
They announced mom will do chemo
I was shocked
I saw hair fall
One by one
The look on my mum's face
Was full of sadness
She would cut her hair shorter
The look on her face
Was full of misery
That what I knew it would bring
People send flowers
To express sympathy
They send chocolates
To express sadness
I couldn't send anything
I didn't know what I felt
Couldn't express unknown feelings
I was torn
I was confused
I was lonely
I closed the door of my room
Sat in a corner
And cried
Cried for my mom
Cried for me
Cried for my brother
Cried for my father
My mom took me
She gave me her shoulder
Told me everything will be okay
I nodded
Wanting to believe her
Her last operation
I went
And sat in the room
I finally embraced her illness
She was proud of me
She was happy
I smiled a big smile
But for me this time
Mom terminated this disease
She overcome it
Now I see it as a symbol of strength
Now I write here
Giving inspiration
That this will be overcome
If you believe in it
If you believe that you are stronger
I believed
And my mom conquered
Now I am mature
Now I am strong
Now I can face the world full of brutality
And when time comes you can too
