Angst things

I Don't Want Your Apology

     "Ron! Hermione! Harry! Hey!" I had said to those three, those three have been my closest friends ever since first year, so for a good 6 years, actually. We were in Diagon Alley, to get our supplies for Hogwarts this year. "So how've you been since you know, your mom being gone?" Harry asked. I just gave him a death stare. "Didn't I send you an owl saying to not bring it up? Any. Harry, I'd rather not talk about it." I said. I was a bit annoyed. "Hey I've not had parents all my life, welcome to the club!" Harry said, trying to make a joke. "Harry. This doesn't affect you as much as it does me, you barely knew your parents, I knew my mom for 15 years! 15 years of my life!" I said. I was getting angry. "Guys! Please, can we not fight?" Hermione asked in an instant. "I'm going to go for a walk, without Harry, Ron? Can you come with me?" I said, trying to calm myself down. "Uhm- sure" Ron said hesitantly
     We started walking around Diagon Alley and I couldn't help but think Ron had looked adorable but I wasn't gonna say a word about it, cause I don't want to ruin Ron and I's friendship. "Where exactly are we-" Ron started but I cut him off "Go back to Harry and Mione, I see something." I said, trying to protect him. "But-" he started again "Go!" I motioned him and he went. I went to draw my wand but then I remembered about underage magic so I pulled my hand away from my wand and crept silently closer to the mysterious figure. "What am I doing? I could get killed!" I thought but I still crept towards the figure.
      "Madi! I finally get to see you again!" The figure said. "Who are you and how do you know my name!?" I asked, impatiently. "It's me, your father" he said. I gasped "No! no! You can't be! My dad left when I was 5! To be a stupid death eater! He killed my mother during the last few months of school during my 5th year!" I said agitated. The figure sighed and said "That was me...I hadn't realized it was her…" "you. You are a monster! You took away the one person I looked up to! The one person I was able to have as a motherly figure, the motherly figure to Delilah, and Zayn! Our mother for that matter!" I told him in anger. "Look! I'm sorry ok!? I didn't mean to kill her!" He said, although he didn't sound or look like it. "I don't want your apology." I said getting even madder. "You should have apologized when I was 5, before you left us. Go on, apologize, for ruining my life." {{Yes I put something from Encanto there, don't kill me please-}} I walked away upset and walked back to Ron, Hermione, and Harry and just hugged Ron, while crying into his shoulder a bit "I don't want his apology!" I managed through my tears. Harry and Mione we're confused, and so was Ron. "Hey what's wrong, Madi?" Harry had asked. "It's my father he-he-hes a stupid death eater...he was just there...he tried apologizing I don't want his apology! He killed my mother, my poor mother, left me to take care of my younger siblings! Alone! He chose that stupid bald idiot over his own family!" I said as I let go from Ron and dried my eyes. "Mione, can you please call the ministry and tell them I found a death eater?" I had said, in a serious tone. "On it!" She had replied as she had her phone out and was calling the ministry of magic.
     "Yes, hi, this is Hermione Granger, and my close friend has found a death eater in Diagon Alley, he was close to Knockturn Alley, but blended in well with everyone….Last name? Mann….thank you very much, ma'am." That's how the phone call went, and after about 10 seconds they showed up and took away my father.
Did I feel regret? Maybe a little, but I'll be better off without him in my life, how it was all my life.
Did I miss him? Growing up, before I knew what a death eater meant, yes, but now kinda. 
Did he try to apologize to me? Yes but I don't want his apology. All he did was cause my family pain. Plus, he didn't even look or act like he really was sorry. Plus if he truly sorry he'd've apologized when I was younger, before he left.
Am I upset that he's a death eater?  Of course I am! Why wouldn't I be!? I killed my mom, and left me at a young age. Of course in upset about it.

"I don't want your apology"