depressed/self harm thoughts

can't sleep

I don't know why im still here
I mean there's billions of people in the world im not that important
I might hold value in a handful of people but they have had and still have worse lives than mine.all I seem to be is a horrible burden upon everything. People just want to either get away from me or ignore my presence entirely
I wish they knew how much it hurts when they say 'oh im so lonely there's no one to talk to' when Im sitting right next to them and what's worse is if someone points it out they glance at me and just keep complaining while ignoring me
They don't even fucking give me a chance
I fucking hate people like that
Which unfortunately means I hate 95% of my society.....great