Save a place for me in your heart

"Where am I?" I asked, hoping someone would answer. I couldn't see anything, my eyes were still adjusting.

"Georgia! You're awake, you're in the hospital." A fimiliar voice replied.

"Jackson? Jackson, is that you?" I asked.

"Yes, baby, it's me. I'm right here." He said. He kissed my forehead then sat back down.

"What happened? Why am i here?!" I said starting to freak out.

"You got into a car accident, you were driving to my house for our valentines date. God damn it I knew I should have picked you up. That dumb drunk ass guy didn't even walk away with a scratch. I'm so sorry boo." Jackson sniffled.

"Am I going to be okay?" I chocked out.

"The doctors said that you didn't hit your head so nothings wrong there, but, you broke your back. Georgia, you may never be able to walk again. We don't know though, it's to early to tell how bad the damage was." Jackson studdered.

"'WHAT?!?! How am I suppose to ride the horses? How am I suppose to do anything?!' I screamed.

"Calm down, please baby please, the doctors doing his best, I know you're scared. But I'm right here and I promise I'll never let anything bad happened to you. I love you." Jackson said hugging me tightly.

I started balling into his shoulder. "I love you too baby, I love you too."

Jackson stayed with me all night long until my parents came. My parents didn't talk to me, it was strangely weird, did I do something wrong? Or was this to much for them to handle? I decided I should just give them there space to process everything, while I did the same. But I cannot explain how BORING sitting in a hospital all day long is. There is abosultely nothing to do other then watch boring news channels and eat their disguting food, execpt the pudding, I like the pudding!

The room was silent all day long until my oldest brother, Michael, finally decided to speak up. "How are you doing George?"

"I've been better, how are you?" I said to my entire family.

No one spoke up, so Michael answered my question. "I'm doing okay, I think were all just a bit overhwelemed. This is crazy."

"Tell me about it, we haven't been here sinse Laura was born 5 years ago!" I replied. Laura was my youngest sister, who was the baby our 5 child family.

"Oh what a good say that was!" Laura said with a big grin on her face.

"It really was." I smiled back as she giggled. I looked over to see my parents bitting their nails completely ignoring our group conversation. I've never seen them like this before, I mean yeah I may never walk again, which is a big deal because I was planning on following in my dad's footsteps of being a professional horse racer. But the way they looked, their faces pale, their eyes bloodshot, my mom was even shaking. This truly scared me. I felt like there was something I didn't know. But did I really want to know? I already had enough on my plate, tomorrow I have to see if I can walk, I don't know if can handle anymore suprises. I guess I'll just have to let it go for now.

"Hey guys, do you mind leaving for a bit? I kind of want to be alone right now." I asked

"Sure." Michael responded. As soon as they left I grabbed my pillow and pulled it to my face, I let out a huge shrek. I started crying into my pillow, everything came flashing back, the light, the screaming, the glass percing into my back, the yelling, everything. It was to much. I couldn't handle it. I heard the door creek, but didn't care to look up. I felt someone sit on my bed and hug me. I looked up to see it was Jackson. I was so happy to see him! I pulled him closer and cried into his shoulder.

"Baby what happened?" He asked.

"Everything, all of this. It's to much to handle. I keep thinking into the future and what if I really can't ever walk? My whole life is down the drain! My parents won't even talk to me and neither will half my siblings. I feel like there's something their not telling me and I'm driving myself crazy thinking about it." I scrambled to say.

"Whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa. Breathe George breathe. I know that it's hard, but you can't think so negatively, come on. Bethany lost her arm and she is surfing today. I know that even if you can't walk, you will find a way to ride. Even if it's maybe not racing, you will find something else to do with them. Do you know how many occupations envolve horses? About the not telling you something, how about I go have a talk with your parents and see what I can squeeze out of them?" Jackson replied.

"Ugh, you're the best. Thank you. I love you so much, what would I do without you?! Oh, I liked how you put Bethany in that." I said giving him a wink. He smiled then walked out of the room. How lucky am I to have him? I thought to myself, he is so amazing. I continued to think about him as I drifted off to sleep.

I woke up to the sound of Jackson crying. I've never heard him cry before, he's one of the toughest people I know. I started shaking because anything to make him cry could tear me to pieces.

"Baby? What's wrong?" I said suprised when I turned around to see my dad hugging Jackson, trying not to cry and my mom sitting down silently crying.

My mom spoke up first. "Sweetheart, there's something we really need to tell you."

"Mom? Your scaring me." I mumbled.

"We haven't been completely honest and forth coming about everything.The doctor told us that your back will be okay, you will walk." She said trying to force a smile.

"That's great! But shouldn't we be happy about that?" I asked.

"There's more hunny." My dad replied.

"While they were doing some tests, they, they" My mom couldn't finish her sentence.

"They found something." My dad finished for her.

"What'd they find?" I said shaking. My mom looked at my dad and nodded as if telling him to say whatever it was. My dad came over and pulled me into a bear hug. He looked into my eyes and said

"Sweetheart, my beautiful baby, they found that you have cancer."