THE INDIFFERENT LUNA 1 - Austan wolf

CHAPTER 16

I pushed the dreadful feeling that I had that cold morning down, wrapping my cardigan around myself as I walked the path that led to the lake. I don't know why, but for some reason, I couldn't stop remembering the moments we had along this path. Our first kiss, our strolls, me riding on Adolphus's back and my hair in the wind.

I could feel myself tearing up again. I sniffed continuously, wiping the tears off my eyes. Was this what he wanted, for me to remember our time together? Did he really have a reason for marrying Layla? Was it the pack? Why didn't he tell me about it? I would have easily agreed with him. I had been the one who had tried to convince him to take his mother's advice and marry her. He had said it wouldn't hurt us. It couldn't hurt us.

Was I now walking this path to hear an excuse from a man who had promised me that nothing could keep him away from being with me? He had said I made him happy. What am I going to do if he said he had done it to protect our pack? Would it change things? Would I be willing to be his second woman?

No. Layla would kill me before she even let that happen. I don't want to be the second woman either. Why then am I going to see him? I asked myself stopping in my tracks and rethinking my decision.

Why am I walking this path? I asked myself again and I realized I wanted to forgive. I love him. I don't want this anger in me. I have never been this angry before, not even when my parents abandoned me. Well, theirs hadn't come as a surprise as Eric's had.

I could feel this anger changing me, I don't recognize myself in the mirror anymore, I don't recognize who I am anymore. All I saw was a broken person and I wanted him to explain so that I could at least have an excuse to let go. I want to let go.... to let him go, but I don't know how.

I felt the rising sun shining on my face almost as if welcoming me, and I looked up smiling at the peaceful atmosphere around the lake. The lake has always been an amazing place for one to relax and watch the sky. I had been there with Eric so many times, those magical moments when I was so sure that he felt nothing but love for me.

Maybe he did, but why didn't he ever tell me he loved me? Maybe if he did, I would have trusted in him now, but I never confessed to him either, so I guess that makes two of us.

He wasn't here, however. He hadn't been around here recently either, there was no trace of his scent anywhere here. Signing, I went to sit on the fallen tree I had once sat on with Eric.

It's funny how I turned out to be the one waiting for him now, it used to be the other way round. I smiled sadly at that and watched the calm lake, remembering how he had once skipped stones into the lake so professionally. How I was so mesmerized by his looks and his abs and.....

"You're here early." I heard someone say and I jumped up immediately and turned around to see Layla walking towards me with a smile on her face but she wasn't alone, two men that I had never seen before followed behind her. They had a strange scent and I could guess that they were not from our pack, probably her bodyguards from her own pack.

But then how did she know this place? No one knows this place except myself and Eric,

"Why are you here?" I asked her as anger began to bubble within me.

"What do you mean? Eric sent me to meet with you because he can't make it." She said and I was slightly taken aback, but quickly composed myself.

"Or you sent me the message in Eric's name." I declared angrily.

Eric would not..... Eric could not....

But she stared at me ignorantly,

"And how would I know where your so-called special place is?" she said as she walked forward, closely followed by the men, and I frowned, trying to guess how she knew because I couldn't agree with the nagging thought that Eric told her. But I never told anyone, even Lady Freya, who had been here once, didn't know that this was the place.