Journal Thing. (IDK)

day one- boring af

So today was pretty normal. I got a good score on a test and yeah. there was some drama but nothing much. I didn't want to draw today but y'know. some days I feel bad for not drawing. it's the same for a lot of things. like I don't do something and I get stressed and half of my brain goes 'hey your gonna fail in life.' i wanna know if this happens to anyone else. I like to draw btw. yeah, tbh is decent too. some days I get so stressed I start crying because I feel like a lazy failure. that hasn't happened in a while so either I've been so lazy I've gotten used to it or I've taught myself to relax. IDK. it could be either. I like drawing dsmp. especially ranboo. he has such a cool character design tho. I wonder how he came up with the design. tbh I would love to meet him. or just the bench trio in general. some times I feel bad telling someone my problems because I'm worried they will think I'm dramatic. cause I know lots of people who are so dramatic it's cringy. I guess I just don't wanna be like them. tbh I think I care too much about how people view me. especially popular kids. I can't just be me who finds them so intimidating? it's like I  can't even walk by their table without thinking 'hey you know they are probably judging you right now.' now that I'm talking about it my school sucks. it's literal crap. however, I feel too lazy to rant about it now so yeah. bye

by the way, I probably will only write once or twice a week depending on my mood.