Brain storm in a dark night of 2020.

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Now, I sit here and listen to old Imagine Dragons songs, I know they're trying to help me, but I'm just trying to sing along.

What the hell should I do 

when I'm not feeling On the Top of the World?

My dreams are too huge for a box like your head.

I do wanna be a doctor, 

but I also want a life without regret.

I used to think that live forever was a possible existence.

but people do NOT turn to rock.

take my dad as an example.

He tried to discover the mysteries of love.

Now every second of my father's life is a story to be told.

So my heart is always broken, and I KNOW everything counts.

And only laughs and hugs are the things that comes around.

But how can I do that if I'm staying inside my room?

Starring at these books that screams to me  that I'm dumb.

Now I sit here and listen to old Twenty One Pilots songs.

I know they're trying to help me but I'm just trying to sing along.

Don't say you care.

Don't say you'll always be here.

because when I needed you the most,

You told me that you were busy.

Now I am the one

who's asking you to leave.

Cuz I don't need in my life

a toxic friendship.

I'm aloud to be too loud.

I am not that irresponsible.

I'm just trying to make it counts.

I do everything you ask.

Study, clean, be polite.

But when you ask me about my dreams.

I feel like I have to lie to you.

then, I say "I'm fine".

The truth really is:

I'm afraid I'm way behind.

I don't believe what's on tv 

and I'm scare of real life. 

Now I sit here and listen to old Coldplay songs.

I know they're trying to help me but I'm just trying to sing along.

There are monsters under my bed.

Wish it was, but they're NOT  Sully or Mike.

They whisper in my ear,

when the day becomes the night.

the thoughts running my head

and I'm feeling trapped inside.

I keep praying for this voice to shut.

But I feel like I have no power in my mind.

I'm feeling trapped inside.

and my apartment is way too high.

I took a step to close the window

because I don't wanna fly.

I heard those ooh ooh ooh's

and I took a step aside.

What am I without my family?

I don't want THAT paradise.