Light to my Dark (Felix x Lamppost)

Painness

     -It's been an long night, I don't remember why. My head is still spinning after all those drunken words of mines. So stupid; So dumb; But so dumbfounded of mines to be blind like this.
Anyways, the burgeria's hours is long, I don't remember how long. But I don't accept my head making stupid visions, not when it happens in the morning, I mean "In The Morning".
I don't believe that Brian knows what I did before last night, nor the night after, but all I know is my heart racing like hell and my breathing is occur to stop every breath a minute.

     -Kids laughing and playing, Bon and his Friends singing; joining the music on their stage, and the smell of food lefted on un-served tables. It's just the same. Just the fucking same.
"When can it be different for ONCE?" I asked myself. All I know my place to stay and an place to go, what I should do and what should I be at. But I, stupid Felix, Founder of Bon's Burgers and a buddy of the man himself, Jack Walten, is here. Yay. I smiled, like always.

-"Hey, is everything okay?" A voice occurs behind me. I snapped back to reality as I was lost in my own thoughts again. I turned around, feeling a bit ill in my throat. The voice asked again. "Felix, you look ill, is anything okay bud?"

     -"I-" I spoke. My words tangled. I couldn't speak firmly. Anxiously, I tried to speak again. "I'm fine..." I stood crooked by my legs. I stared at Jack, as he just stood there, worried. He looked at me with an pity eye.

     -Jack walked up to me, and placed his hand on my shoulder. His expression became more with worry and sadness. "Felix," he begged, "you looked ill." My feelings can't express what I'm going to say. I told his hand away form my shoulders. He stood back. "Do you need to lay down, or talk about it?.." I walked to the side of the hallways.

     -"I just don't feel good Jack, I just don't know..." I broke down. It's an good sign I didn't broke down in front of the undetected children in the play-pit. Jack walked up to me once more. He put his arm around me in shame. I shook my head down, hiding the fact I stared to tear up. "I just don't know, the visions...I don't know, trauma?..."

     -He starts to trail me down the path of the hallways. He looked at me, not breaking any eye contact. I sweated down badly. I can't start crying in front of my dearest friend. I wiped my tears quickly, hiding away my face. But I can't hide my face to see my friend worried in front of me. Jack stopped me in the end of our path and let me sit down. He moved by to sit next to me. "Now, tell me what's wrong? I'm worried about you Felix.." He questioned while he pulled out his handkerchief and gifted to me in my hands. I stood up straight but failed to collapse to give eye contact.

    -"I Just Don't Know Jack. Your my dearest friend. I DON'T KNOW!" I cried. I just don't know what to say. It's just that night with something I might say "something strange" last night, but it just hits me with trauma and nightmares. I've might be overthinking again like always. Why am I explaining this to him. IM JUST SO STUPID.
Jack wiped my tears away.

   -"What's wrong, please....I beg you Felix....I want to help...." He begged. He stared at me quietly. Quietly of my mindless arguments of mines. My tears won't stop. The visions....they won't stop. I have to say something, I can't just leave him in slient. But I can't. "......" Jack looked away in pure disbelief.

    -".....Jack...I'm sorry...." I finally responded. Jack looked at me. He smiled for an bit. I took an breathe away form my horrible tears and begin what I must do. "Jack, I don't know what I can do....I feel dumb and stupid....." He placed his hand on my shoulder again. "Jack.....please, can you help me?" I quietly asked. My hands fiddled in fear and nervousness.

    -"Of Course, I'm your friend, please Felix, let me be your pills to your pain, I'm listening to your pain right now." He smiled worthiness at me. I'm still afraid but I must say something.

    -"I'm afraid of this place...well..my life. I'm afraid that the visions may tell the truth. They hurt me, violent me, and left me there for good. I just need someone like you to help me...to hear me out Jack, I trust you Jack..." I let out my last words before I feel an lump forming in my throat. "I'm whortless...stupid am I?" I can feel my eyes water again. It's hurt. Very much. Jack shook his head, disbelieving.

    -"No...No it's not true Felix. Your not what you are. Please I'm here for you. Your not stupid, your learning. We all learn form our mistakes, it's not your fault Felix..." He answered, I looked down, miserable. I feel very dumb when Jack, the person I trust, say to these stuff. I believe in him but I can't just take it.

   -Suddenly, I feel weight over my body. I can't move. I looked up with my eyes redden to see that it's not my body that making these tricks upon my neck, Someone is actually there. Jack hugged me tightly in awe as he sees me that I'm not just only in pain, but someone who needed someone.

   -"Jack....I-" I interrupted.

   -"Shush,... it's okay Felix. Don't cry. I'm here for you. That's what friends are for, right?..." I whimpered as I nodded my head. I cried once more as Jack hugged me more. "It's okay, everything's okay now..." I wrapped my arms around him to join him. I don't know why I'm feeling so useless but I feel much better when I'm not alone.

   -"Jack I'm sorry." I said, sadly. Jack looked at me with sorrow.

   -"It's okay, I'm just letting you sure your okay still." He asked. My tears starts to dry up slowly. My visions started to get clearer now. I'm not alone now. I'm not alone. Your here with me, you are my saver Jack.

   -"Do you want to go back there if your better?" He asked. I nodded my head.

   -"Later?" I asked in question.

   -"Yes, later." He responded. "Only if you feel like your better."

HIIIII FIFI YOUR LIVE STREAMS ARE AWESOME IM SORRY IF THIS IS VERY SAD IM SORRRRYYYYY.