Forever? ||

32.

" Do you  regeet it ? " He asked after a significant silence as they sat in each other's arms.

" I do ..You know why ? " She asked turning to him

" Because i still didn't learn anything from it. I would still do the same mistake ... i would still keep my partner above me and continue forgiving his mistakes just because i love him... I may get scared  before every relationship because everything has left me deeply affected . I regret letting people run over me like that but i would still do the same and i hate myself for it .. Such a pathetic loser i am " she sighed in a choked voice

" You aren't pathetic ... You are just a person who has so much love inside and i admire you so much for that ... Not everyone is as brave as you to smile even after going through so much yet you wake up everyday smiling and making everybody smile ... I am so lucky to have a girl like you in my life laddoo " He said joining their forehead and taking her in an eskimo kiss while she smiled warmly closing her eyes

" Do you regret ? Your past decisions ?" She asked quitely and he sighed before higging her tighter

" I don't " She looked at him curiously and he nodded before explaining

" I have changed so much laddoo , i have learnt so much from all the decisons  i made , all the relationships , good or bad ,  I think i am abetter version of myself now.... Do you know there was a time when i had distanced  from my family , didn't talk to them for so long , ignored my friends and eventuall lost touch with them , for her . Because of her . I am not saying it was entirely her fault , it was mine too .. I was so used to having things get done for me and i wasn't as sensible that time  so i just kept myelf focused on the relationship , making her happy , doing things for her ... Proving myself to her .... since i was younger i always felt to prove myself.. Ladoo i am a person who seeks for validation , i need to know if i even value in your life and all those i kept doing that , forgetting everyone , even fought with my fans ... For what ? For getting blamed 9f cheating ? For getting termed a playboy ? For being left alone ? Or for not having the same relationship with my family anymore ? " He sniffed wiping  the corner of his eyes. She kissed his shouldee rubbing his arm

" Sunny ... I wasn't your fault .... You don't have to do things to seek validation.... The right person knows what you are , how you are , they'll appreciate and love you for the real you .... You know you'll never have and should have to do things untill you want to from heart... It was her loss that she couldn't see the efforts you put in ... and believe me i would accept any version of you ... I like you for who you are so don't doubt yourself ... I am sure your parents and true friends must be so proud of you " She dropped a kiss on his neck and he tried his best to not shed tears . How did this girl always said the things he needed to hear . She understood him so well . No judgements , no hate , no questions and she was always there for him

" I just try to make most of my time with them now ... I feel so guilty every time i think about what they must have felt their only son going away from them... I jus... I hope they have forgiven me fully for ignoring them ... I realised so late what they actually mean to me and now i try my best  to leave a chance
to show how much i respect and love them " He murmured and she smiled.

" No parent can never not forgive their children sunny... I am sure they are proud of what you have become now . you are the best son, best brother , best friend and the best boyfriend anyone could ever have " She said softly looking into his eyes

" Boyfriend huh ? " He teased and she shied away blushing

" When did i become your boyfriend  ? " he asked teasingly

" Huh , when did i say you are ? I was talking in general " She said innocently and he pinched her cheeks

" You do know you are such a tease right ? " He asked and she grinned