Buried Emotions

6

*Jade's POV*

I was really worried about Beth, she doesn't seem to wanna eat anymore,
When I brought her to my home five years ago she wasn't like this.

"Beth, are you hungry Hun" I knocked on her bedroom door,
"No." she grunted,
"Are you sure you don't want something?" I tried to make her eat,
"I'm sure Jade." she sighed clearly pissed off.

I just took that as a signal to leave,
I walked downstairs, putting the remainders of my delicious dinner that Bethany didn't even bother to eat, in the refrigerator.

I cleared my plate before sprawling out on the sofa, about to watch more episodes of Family Guy.

*Bethany's POV*
*Next Morning*

I woke up, going straight to the shower, my daily routine was always the same,
I took off my clothes, jumping in.

After showering I threw on a '5SOS' tee, denim shorts and some Jordan's, I don't usually wear stuff like that, It didn't feel like me, so I threw on my hoodie.
I swear I'm fucking attached to it.

If you're wondering, where am I going?
I am not going anywhere I just wanted to watch TV once again.

I was in the middle of my daily dose of Law and Order when the doorbell rang,
"Get that for me please Bethany" Jade yelled from upstairs,
"Okay" I yelled back.

I opened the door surprised by Justin,
"Hey Beth" he said his voice hoarse and raspy,
"What do you want?" I shot him a look, I didn't mean to come off so bitchy.

"I just came to ask if you wanted to hang out" he asked rubbing his throat,
Really? I thought to myself.

"Uh, I'll have to check with you later, is that ok?" I groaned,
"Y-yeah. Um.. bye" he waved, I nodded and slammed the door.

"Who was that Bethany?" Jade came down with a towel wrapped around her body,
"Just some salesman" I lied, of course I felt bad for lying like that, especially about a 'friend'.

"Oh okay, well I'm going to work soon, so I'll be upstairs getting dressed" she leant down to kiss my forehead, "Love you sweetheart"

I didn't responded I just nodded simply.
Switching the TV to a random channel, after a while I went upstairs and wrote a few more lyrics to my song.

I opened the journal and took a pen from the desk,
"You make me feel like I'm on cloud 9,
I love your smile and..." I stopped not knowing what to put there,
I laughed slightly at the next lyric.

"...your sexy behind,
But baby I want you to be all mine,
I have died everyday, waiting for you,
They've got planes, trains, cars, I'd walk to you, if I had no other way,
I'll make you mine..
I'll make you mine" I tapped my pen on the journals hard cover.

I closed the journal shut putting it in the drawers of the nightstand, and laid back on the bed, let's see what tomorrow brings.

*Justin's POV*

I can't believe it, she said she'd tell me if she wanted to hang out, she always seemed to push me away, even though I have been there for her to overcome all the shit she's been through.

I furiously took out my journal, grabbing my lucky pen from the desk,
I began writing lyrics to finish off a song I wrote called 'Nothing like us' it was about a boy who tried to help this girl, but she kept pushing him away. Familiar?

"I gave you everything babe,
Everything I had to give,
Girl why would you push me away?
Lost in confusion,
Like an illusion,
You know I'm used to making your day,
That Is the past now,
We didn't last now,
I guess that this ain't meant to be,
Tell me was it worth it?
We were so perfect,
Baby I just want you to see,
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you for me,
Together through the storm,
There's nothing like us,
There's nothing like you and me,
Together" I finished singing, I nearly made myself cry.

All I did was try and help Beth but she threw the shit back in my face.
Was I hurt? Fuck yes I was hurt..
I mean I cared, but I can't be bothered with her anymore.