I really don't feel like writing today but I told myself that I would write in this diary everyday for a year. The reason I don't feel like writing is because I feel horrible. I miss being with Adam not sexually but as in an actual relationship. I hate that we broke up. I hate that he's with her. They seem so in love and I feel like he's forgetting about me even though we just had sex two days ago. I honestly feel as if he's really forgotten about me. That hurts. Really hurts. I'm confused I can't move on. I'm in love, what am I suppose to do? I know what I'm doing is beyond wrong and dumb but I love him. He's the only person who knows the real reason my father went to prison when I was five and why I moved with my grandmother at eight. He knows me and he's always been there for me when I need someone to cry to. I have nothing if I don't have him. My job, my house, my car, even my money doesn't amount to him because none of those things has ever wiped my tears, made me laugh unconditionally, or satisfy my body the way he does. I'm emotional and I'm hurting. I'm alone and I'm miserable. I truly need help. God help me. Please.
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Diary of a Sidechick
De TodoLove shouldn't have to be so painful. I want you, I need you but you're with her and I'm just your sidechick.
