Me And My Dog

Why us?. how about why me?

Jimin's  pov

"Could you please leave our lives. we've  had enough of your bullshit !. All your know how to do is lie with every breath you take !" Namjoon shouted , voice laced with hate and anger , you would think the person just murdered his whole family .

Sadly this is how my life is going on right now . It was not long ago when I came home to their spiteful behaviour towards me. 8 months ago to be exact .

I had left before anyone woke up as I didn't want to confront the others knowing very well they would force me to stay till afternoon to go practice and force me to eat breakfast . By that time I had my eating  disorder , which I still have.

When I stepped inside the living room I was met with jungkook's Cold glare with his phone in his hand seconds away from being squashed into  meaningless pieces  . " Hello jungkookie " , I greeted with a smile trying to lighten up the cold atmosphere. " Where were you ?!" He shouted and I was sure everyone heard his loud angry voice and was later proven as everyone stepped in the living room.

" Jungkook I swear to god if you don't fucken have a reasonable explanation for waking me up I will fucking kill your stupid ass !" Yoongi shouted. You could clearly see the killing instinct in his eyes. One thing you should never do is WAKE UP YOONGI FROM HIS SLEEP !

" Look at what this fucken whore did ", jungkook said while he showed his 'still in shape' phone to yoongi as the others gathered to see and I was still rooted in my place fully processing what jungkook just called me. Did he literally just call me a whore ?.

"Fucken park jimin!" Jin busted like an atomic bomb . Since when did Jin start swearing . " Jimin how could you ?" Tae asked , eyes brimming with tears . "Wait a minute , what did I do ?" I asked clearly clueless about the matter but ofcause they couldn't see that . " Fuck that bullshit you know what you did ", j hope stated with anger.

"I don't know what you're talking about . Give me your phone jungkook . " I said as I stepped closer  to jungkook but he flinched away from me . " You and your whoring personality must stay the fuck away from me , How could you do this to us ?." He asked and I had no answer as I didn't know what they were talking about .

"Could you please te-" I wanted to ask before I was cutted off by namjoon." Jimin go to your room " he said disappointedly .

By now my eyes were rimmed with tears .The disappointment in his tone hurted more than anything. One thing I never wanted to do was disappoint Namjoon. My leader . The one responsible for all my fame and money.

I quickly ran to my room , closing the door rather loudly than intended  and plotted down on my bed before covering myself with my blanket .  That night I cried myself to sleep hoping that when I wake up everything would go back to normal like yesterday but sadly , luck wasn't on my side that even today after 8 months , they hate me even more. 

Which brings us to this situation. " I was just trying to make myself some food . I haven't eaten since days " , I tried to explain to namjoon ." That also is a lie like everything else about you . Pathetic slut ." Namjoon spat distastefuly like he was speaking to the lowest of whores .

"Fucken get out of my site before I punch the day lights out of you " he warned and I took of running to my bedroom as I didn't want him to see me weak . It's enough that he sees me as pathetic.

Sometimes I just wish to end it all but I'm too much of a coward to kill myself. I've even searched for the most painless ways to die and when the opportunity was right in front of me , I backed out like the coward I am. 

If only they allowed me to see that video which I later found out it was a video of me doing shameless things to pd nim while he was drugged , also by me .

All the insults , the punches and kicks don't hurt more than the fact that my own members and friends don't trust me enough to believe me when I say that I would never do anything like that. They just went and believed a video sent by who , they never even bothered to ask but just believe it was true more than me begging it wasn't. They had known me for more than 6 years before that video and yet still all those years became pointless once they saw the video.

I wanted to leave the group but I was afraid of what pd nim would say . I haven't ever crossed paths with him for the past 8 months.

While going to my bedroom I stopped by jhope's room , with whom I used to share it with but since the video fiasco , he chose to sleep alone and said , and I quote " I don't want your disgusting presence anywhere near me and Who knows what you might do to me while I'm asleep ".

It hurted a lot to hear that from someone who I had least expected to believe the video before taehyung . While still lost in my thoughts I didn't realise I was crying and also didn't notice the presence next to me .

" You did this to yourself. This is your mess . Quit crying your crocodile tears and fucken leave us alone you fucking bitch. ", Tae whispered next to my ear in a soft tone one would think he was flirting with me but news flash , he's not .

I would do anything for them to forgive me even when I didn't do anything . I just want them to stop treating me like a prostitute who I'm 100 percent sure gets more respect than me .

"I-I'm sorry. Pl- please f-forgive me, p-please", I muttered , voice cracking. I hadn't even realised I was full on sobbing before I spoke in a whisper I'm sure Tae would have not  heard if he wasn't so close to me  . " Shut up ! , Shut the fuck up . All you ever do is say your pointless meaningless sorrys which no one gives a fuck about. Why don't you just end your life I'm sure no one would even care anyways " , he spat in disdain .

How could he say that . How could my own soulmate say that about me . He was my best friend. The only one I trusted more than anyone , even my own family.

It really is over for me , isn't ?

"Ok , I'll leave you all alone . I'm sorry for ruining your peace , I hope you forgive this low life for disturbing your life . Thank you for being some of the best people I've ever met and I want to tell you I don't regret it at all. I wish things could have turned out better but i'm tired . Tell the others I said goodbye and  also ... Goodbye v . Wish you all the best " , I said as I smiled even though it was hurting the most to see myself like this. Guess nothing good lasts forever.

I wished he could have stopped me as I walked to my room and say he didn't mean what he said but instead I heard the exact opposite of what I wanted. I wished I had listened to my dad when he said I shouldn't have high hopes cause this one , hurts the most.

" Thank you , hope to never see you again ", Tae commented , voice beaming with happiness which I wished with my soul was fake but I knew it was not . He was truly happy that I was leaving so I'm sure this is the best decision . I will not tell pd nim of my leave as I don't want to confront him. 

Guess I have to start packing and I also need to book a hotel room to sleep in for a few  nights before I find a permanent place to live in . I will not go to my family's house. I don't want to be a burden to them also.

I will just buy a nice house for myself and I  also might  buy a dog  for company . I have enough money to last me for years but I'll still look for a job just to keep myself busy. I'll just take this as an early pencion . Just me and my dog , Without a care in the world

I wish things didn't turn out as it is now but I can't do anything about it so I might as well try to live the rest of my life happy than in an environment where everything I do is negatively judged by people I used to call my friends.

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First chapter done !. Hope you like it , also English is not my native language so plz forgive me for any wrong spellings and grammatical errors.. I'm not one to force people to vote or comment on my story but if you  do , know that it is well appreciated . I promise you guys that I will try to make fast updates as I'm also a person Who doesn't like to wait too long for an update only to end up being bored or even forgetting about the story, anyways, Thank you for reading . Bye !☺️(^^) .

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