The Adolescence Of Addiline

Chapter 5: Alone

I put on my heavy weight coat along with my tights and some black dress shoes. Today is my first day of school.

I wanted to run away but I don't know what was holding me back. "Addiline, your going too miss the bus" says Mrs Kera "Ok I'll be right there" I shout back. I walk over to my closet to grab my backpack, I see Abner waging his tail and breathing heavily. "Hey boy, I'll be back don't you worry" he licks my cheek and I give him a scratch behind the ear.
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I see the bus coming around the corner and I start to shake. Mrs Kera puts her hands on my shoulders which relieves me. "Listen to me, sweetheart you are the nicest, sweetest, most passionate little girl I have ever seen and don't let anybody tell you different" she says. She kisses my forehead and I let loose of her grip.

I walk through the doors that swing open creaking as the hinges slammed on there brakes. I walk on and the bus driver gives me a glare and I just keep my head down trying not to look in her direction.

Some of the guys stare at me, which makes me uncomfortable, and the girls just give me dirty looks....all except one. She sat in the back of the bus. She looked like she needed a friend and so did I.

"Is this seat taken?" I ask her, she looks at me and then moves her backpack over. We sit in silence for most of the ride.

"Hi, my name is Addiline, what's yours?" I say smiling, but still she doesn't respond. I give up all hope that she won't answer me and I let her be.

"My name is Lila" she says with her hazel eyes staring at me. "Are you new?" she asks me "Yeah, I'm in foster care. What about you" she looks down at her hands and she starts to shake "I don't like to talk about my home life so please don't ask me anything about it" I stare at her "Ok, but why don't you like talking about it?" "I just don't like talking about it ok!!!" she says loudly. Everybody looks back at us and laughs.

I look out the window and I see a tear in her reflection. "Im sorry" I say "No, it's fine" . She wipes off her tears and her runny nose on her jacket but I don't mind she seems sweet and full of imagination, but I'm wondering why everybody hates her.
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I walk into the classroom and I already hate it. I sit next to Lila and she smiles.

The minutes seemed like hours when we were learning. By the time lunch came around I wanted to cry. Not being in school for a long time can do that too you, especially if your the stupidest one in class. Today while we were doing basic back from break math the teacher called on me and the question was what is 4x5 and I said "I don't know" everybody thought I was kidding but after a little bit people started getting the memo.

At lunch it was the worst. Wherever I would try and sit people would just roll there eyes and say "no". I searched around the lunch room for anybody, that's when I found her sitting in the dark corner. Lila sat there and she looked very sick.

"Lila, what's wrong are you ok?" I ask her. She was shaking and there was a pile of throw up and blood on the ground. She looked like she was dead. "Lila, just hold on ill be right back" I run to Mrs. Whiteshire and we both hustle back to Lila, only to find her passed out.
We call 911 and the ambulance gets here right away. I couldn't hop in with her, only family. I grab the school phone and call Mrs. Kera. She said that she will be there right away. I always knew I could count on her.
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I sit in the chairs of the waiting room bitting my nails nervously. "Addiline, how long have you known this girl?" asks Mrs. Kera "Only a day but I have never had a friend before and there is just something about her that makes me want to be there for her and stick around. That's the way I think about you Mrs. Kera" I say. She looks at me strangely "How so?" "Well your always there for me and I haven't had that, other families just expect me to love them and respect them automatically but you understand....you know what I'm saying?" She looks at me with empathetic eyes and smiles.

The nurse comes out and I try to run to her but Mrs. Kera holds me back. "I'll go" she says. I plop back in my seat and cross my arms.

Mrs. Kera comes back, she looks like she is about to cry. "Whats wrong? Is she ok?" I ask impatiently, she just looks down. "You should go in there" she says.

I walk through the halls, more like run. I reach her room, 8C. I walk through the doors and hear crying, It's Lila. "Are you ok?" I ask her "What's wrong? Are you going to live?" She looks at me and then cries even harder "Not for long" I look at her, confused. "What do you mean by that? Are you saying that you don't have long to live" I say panicky, All she gives me is teary nod.

" What did they tell you?" I say demanding "They said, Im sick but they don't know what it is. They just said that its deadly and they aren't sure if there medications work. They want to test me but my father won't come down here he hates me. He will just tell me that this is what I get for being the spawn of a hell" I look down "Im so sorry" I say.

She looks down at her hospital wristband and rubs her wrist. "What if I do deserve this?" She says "You don't deserve any of this, no one should deserve this" I say "Thats what you think" she says "That's what you think".