Shades of Love

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~04/08/22
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You may have prayed for a star, but Allah had universes destined for you.
You may have longed fragrance of a particular flower, but Allah had eternal gardens destined for you.
You may have desired the tiniest drop, but Allah had infinite oceans destined for you.
Whatever you may want, know that ALLAH wants better for you❣️
~unknown

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Work. This was the only thing that had kept Shaziya busy for the past one month. She was not trying to think about what had happened in Faikha's house. She would always try keeping herself distracted with work. But did she succeed? Terribly no. At the end of the day her thoughts would always linger towards a certain someone.

Just like everyday she finished her work and went back to her mama's house. After greeting her Maamu and drinking a glass of water, she moved to her room and was shocked to see the person sitting on her bed.

Sajid, her younger brother had come in search of his sister. She was shocked to see him after a long time and he looked completely different. He was no longer the young bubbly child, but rather he had grown into a man. He looked tired and stressed.

"Sajid? What are you doing here?" she asked him as she stood in front of him. She could see the redness in his eyes. It looked like he had been crying.

"Shazi I've come to apologise" he looked down. He couldn't meet his sister's eyes afterall he too had hurted her indirectly. She was his own sister and he too had treated her like a stranger all these years.

"why are you apologising sajid? Wasn't all this my fault? I should be the one apologising to you" she held his hand.

"No. You've already asked a lot of apology. I was the one who hadn't forgiven you that time and had turned my back. I was the one who left you all alone with mom everytime. I wish I would have stood by you and not let her hurt you. I wish I wouldn't have blamed you for everything that happened to Faikha baji. I'm sorry Shazi. Please forgive me" he cried out.

Shaziya had never seen her bubbly brother cry before. She had never been angry on him even though he didn't support her. She was angry on herself for hurting her lovely brother.

"I was never angry with you Sajid and stop apologising. You're my little brother" she hugged him.

"please come back home. Bhai and I miss you a lot. He has been loosing his mind. He has been trying to reach you out but I think he's failing every single time"

Her heart missed a beat after hearing about Niyamath but she couldn't meet him. She had decided on something and she thought it was time to tell her brother the truth.

"I.. I can't come back Sajid. And that is definitely not my home. I don't have a home. I don't have people to call them mine. I've... I've decided I'm going to shift to another city. I'm moving out tomorrow night"

Sajid was shocked listening to his sister. They all had hurted her from a long time and she had come to a conclusion of moving out without informing anyone? Maybe that's why the suitcases were present in the room he wondered.

"Shazi you can't just move out like that. You've got a family here. You've got me, although I was a jerk but you still have me and I can't let you go. Maamu can't let you go. You can't just leave like that" he was getting angry with the new found information. He had lost everyone from his family and now he couldn't lose his sister as well.

He didn't want to be alone. Their father had died, their mother was in a rehab centre and their elder brother was still in the prison. He didn't want to be all alone again. Oh what a messed up family they had got. He broke down in front of his sister.

"Shazi. Please I'm sorry but please don't go. I can't fight alone" he cried.

"You're not alone Sajid. You've got Niyamath, Faikha Di, nadir and his family and you've also got maamu with you. You won't be alone and you can always contact me or come visit me. Please don't make it hard for me Sajid. I've already made up my mind after a great struggle and I don't want to back down right now" she pleaded him.

"We've hurt you too much, right? Or else you would never leave us all like this and go. It's..it's shocking for me to see you in this situation but I will not back down like everytime and I will support you this time Shazi. I promise I will stay by your side this time and not turn my back to you like I've always done"

"Thank you Sajid for understanding my part. And you've always been with me directly or indirectly. I know you've always been checking out on me secretly and I'm glad to have you as my only family now. Maamu has already booked my tickets and I'll be leaving tomorrow night. Please take care of yourself and keep in contact" she ruffled his hair and gave him a half hearted smile.

It was definitely not easy to leave everything behind and move on but she had to try her best. She couldn't give up now after trying so hard not to turn back to him. Even if she did turn back to him, it would be of no use. He would again start avoiding her or he would torture her more with his presence which would only bring silence along with it.

"I want you to take care of yourself Shazi. And also keep in touch with me. I will come and visit you during my college vacations. I've already lost a lot of time and now I don't want to lose the little time I get as well. So you better stay in touch with me and don't you dare abandon me" he warned her lightly.

She nodded her head in affirmative. She would definitely miss everyone.

"It's getting late. You better go back home and catch up some sleep Sajid"

After she bid him goodbye, she finished the last minute packing which was left. She wondered if she was taking the right step or not.

Was it wrong to take a step for herself? For her own happiness? She had given her happiness in the hands of others and they had a great time playing with it and now she just wanted to get control of her happiness. She wanted all of it for herself. And she knew that this step was good for moving away from Niyamath and to start a life of her own.

With these thoughts she closed her eyes and welcomed sleep with open hands.

On the other hand Niyamath was getting restless. He had tried every possible way to get in contact with shaziya but had failed. She had avoided him like plague. He was getting the taste of his own medicines. Now he realised how shaziya might have felt with his constant avoiding.

He decided that he would try until he is successful and gets back Shaziya. But he still hadn't known about her leaving the town.

Would he get to know before she leaves the town or would it be too late?

Would he be forgiven or will she start a new life and move on?

Only time would tell....

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Assalamu alaikum everyone

Hey I hope you're doing good.

A small chapter after a long time. I just need some motivation to write during these busy days.

I try updating the next chapter soon.

Stay tuned

~Huda_fatima.