My girl (Robin Buckley x Fem oc)

SEASON 4 VOLUME 2 SPOILERS!!!

AN!! I know this isn't an Eddie story I just need to rant.

SPOILERS!!

i'm sorry i haven't updated in a few days. i've been busy with work, and then volume 2 came out yesterday and i've practically been laying in a puddle of my tears.

i'm genuinely so so sad about what happened to eddie and maybe i'm just in denial but a part of me is really hoping he didn't actually die and that the duffers will pull a hopper again and he will be back in season 5 but i know that's not likely.

is everyone doing okay? i certainly am not. i really had a feeling that he was gonna die from the beginning of season 4 but once it happened i didn't want to believe it. like there was so much leading up to the fact that he would die but i didn't think it would actually happen.

eddie truly was my favorite character this season, i just loved him so much. though i was a little bit upset that the duffers didn't show anyone else's reaction to him dying except dustin and wayne.

i truly loved the emotion that dustin had though. i found myself sobbing the entire time. and when he was talking to wayne and said that he was a hero and he sacrificed himself for a town that hated him. wow. that. hurt.

i've never felt this much comfort in a character before and i know that sounds stupid but it really does hurt. it's crazy how we can become attached to someone who isn't even real.

please feel free to rant in the comment and tell me how you guys are feeling.

i am thinking publishing an eddie fic that i've been working on for a little bit but i don't know if i'll be able to write the last two episodes. i barely made it through them the first time. my brother wanted me to watch them with him today so i agreed. that was a terrible mistake on my part. i was sobbing

i'm pretty sure i cried the whole four hours of the last two episodes. and it took me like seven hours to get through them because i had to keep pausing because i couldn't see through my tears.

that being said, i hope everyone is doing okay. and if the eddie fic is something you guys would be interested in just let me know.

i think that the duffer brothers should pay for our therapy now.

if anyone ever needs to talk about anything, please don't hesitate to message me!!

All the love, K <3.