Alive {Jemi}

Chapter 12

*few weeks later*

Demi

It was near the end of May now, which I find crazy since my first year of high school will almost be over. Zac has been busy lately with college applications. He told me he wanted to go out of town for college but not too far from me. It warmed my heart when he said that. He got so stressed over it I had to remind him a few times that he still had time. After our argument at the party, he came to my house later that afternoon when I was home and apologized to me. I forgave him and everything is alright for now. We've gotten into some heated arguments here and there but we always made up afterwards. There weren't many parties we've been going to lately but we would end up smoking pot by the woods sometimes or we would go to someones house. Selena joined me a couple times but she stopped coming with me. We've been getting into a lot of arguments lately and I don't know what's wrong with her so I kind of just shook it off and let her be. Every time she talked to me I just found myself annoyed by her or I would lash out at her.

It was the middle of the week and I was grabbing books out from my locker, getting ready for my next class. I close my locker and noticed Selena was getting stuff from hers. I decided to walk over to her since I haven't seen much of her.

"So when are we going to the mall?" I asked her as I checked my phone. Selena texted me earlier today asking if I wanted to go to the mall with her so we can hang out since we haven't done that in a while.

"Can't. Sorry" Was all she said before she closed her locker and started heading to class. I quickly followed behind her. Annoyed and mad she would cancel after she told me today she wanted to.

"What the hell? Why?! You said today you wanted to hang out and now at the last minute you cancel on me?" She continued walking to her class barely giving me a glance as she just stared straight ahead.

"Stop yelling at me Demi! I'm so sick of your attitude lately. I don't know what has gotten into you but you're seriously getting on my last nerve. Don't worry about what I'm doing since every time I tell you something it seems to go in one ear and out the other. Why do you care so much anyways? You haven't seemed to care about what I've had to say lately since you always talk about Zac. So what if I cancelled on you, you cancel on me all the time because of Zac or Britt or Ashley or any of them! You can now spend all the time you want with them now! Have fun." She stormed off and left me there. A part of me wanted to cry as Selena has never spoken like that to me before. I don't feel like I'm doing anything wrong. I let out a sigh and head to class as I wonder what I was doing wrong.

It was lunch now and I found myself walking alone to find my friends. Selena would usually walk with me to lunch but I didn't want to bother her more or make her even more mad at me than before. I walk to the cafeteria and saw Zac and the rest of my friends. I went over to them and sat down in my usual place next to Zac. They were all talking about something and I scanned the cafeteria for Selena wanting to apologize, even though I feel like she should be apologizing to me for lashing out at me like that in the hall. I then found Selena sitting with Joe and Taylor, laughing at whatever they were talking about. This made me somewhat mad and sad on the inside since I knew Selena didn't like Taylor but she was actually smiling and they looked like they were all getting along. I feel sad because I haven't seen her smile like that in a while now or laugh like that when she's with me. It feels like she's slowly slipping away from me. Someone was calling my name out repeatedly which snapped me out of my trance.

"Yeah?" I looked at Zac who was calling me. His eyes showing deep concern.

"Are you alright? I called your name twice. It got me worried" He put his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. I nodded my head.