Chasing Dreams

I can't take it anymore.

I told the audience not to worry and that we'd be back out in a second before running back off stage after Jared. I found him sitting on the steps, head in his hands.

 "Jared, what's going on?" He lifted his head up and his eyes were red and there were tear streaks on his cheeks.

 "I got a notification from Twitter. Somebody hating on me again. I can't fucking take it anymore, Jen. It's killing me. I can't even defend myself or others without getting hate for it. What did I do to deserve this? I'm more depressed than I've ever been and it's affecting Gen and she's pissed because I never want to go anywhere or do anything anymore and I think she hates me man. She used to be so understanding and she could always tell when something was going on and now I feel like she's just gotten tired of dealing with me and my issues and is ignoring me. I don't know what to fucking do anymore man." 

My heart broke for my best friend. "Shit, Jay, why didn't you tell me about all of this?" "It's yours and Misha's fans, Jen. I can't say anything on Twitter without it getting 10x worse than it already is and it's fucking breaking me. I have to force myself to get out of bed and get ready in the mornings." I sighed.

 "You know what, I'm tired of this bullshit. We are going to go back out on that stage and I'm going to let them know I feel about it. I'll even post something on Twitter and Instagram and get Misha in on it too. I've heard people saying you physically and sexually abused Misha with the pranks we pulled on set and I was already planning on making sure he set the record straight because that is a load of bullshit and the people who love you, love Sam, know it, I know it, Misha knows it, Alex knows it, everyone who has ever been on the show knows it, hell even Keith knows what a load of horse crap it all is and he's not been on social media as long as the majority of us have. You haven't done anything wrong and while yes, you and I both know getting pissed at me for not telling you about the spin off on Twitter was not your brightest idea, we have also gotten past that and we laugh about it now. I guarantee there are people in that room out there that love you and are just as affected by the hate you're getting as you yourself are.  Now come on, let's go fuck shit up and make some people very happy! You can do this because you are Jared Fucking Padalecki!" I told him and he grinned.

 I stood up and offered him my hand. He took it and pulled himself up to his feet and we walked back out on stage. Gasps sounded through out the room. We took our seats and grabbed our mics. 

"So, I don't know if any of you are directly responsible for what my brother is dealing with, but I still want to tell you all some things about us. He and I are and always will be best friends and brothers, no matter how many arguments or misunderstandings or disagreements we have, we will always find a way to get past them and make up. Jared is just as human as anybody in this room and the hate he's receiving is unacceptable and uncalled for and if you are sending my best friend and little brother hate and still calling yourself a Jensen fan and/or a Dean fan, you're wrong, because no real, true fan of mine or Dean would say the things being said about and/or directly tweeted to Jared. I also know for a fact because Misha has mentioned it to me in the past, that he feels the same way about all this that I do. You haters are hurting my baby brother, my best fucking friend and it's not just him you're hurting, you're hurting me and Misha and Alex and everybody else that was on the show with us and worked behind the scenes. So as far as we're concerned you don't deserve to call yourselves part of the Supernatural Family." I took a breath and hugged Jared.

 I noticed a couple of people get up and leave the room, before everyone else started cheering and yelling "We love you Jared!" He teared up and blew kisses to the crowd. "Thank you guys. You have no idea how much I need to hear that. I've been in a pretty bad place for awhile now and hearing you guys supporting me really gives me the strength to always keep fighting." 

"Alright, who wants to ask us a question?" I asked. Every hand in the room shot up. I spotted a little girl standing in her chair with her hand up. I pointed to her and somebody walked over with a mic. "What's your name sweetheart?" "Samantha Odette Masters." Jared grinned. "Are you by any chance named after Sam and my little girl named Odette?" He asked the smile on his face a mile wide. "Yeah. My mom wanted to name me Odette before you announced your Odette's name though. She tells everyone that I'm named after your Odette though." The little girl giggled and the audience awwed.

 "How old are you Sam?" She got excited and said "Today's my 5th birthday!" Jared was so fucking happy now that I don't think anything could bring him down. "Happy Birthday! What's your question?" She giggled almost evilly and my eyes got wide. "Do you and Jared ever prank call each other?" I laughed and Jared snorted. "Um the amount of prank calls we've pulled on each other actually outnumbers the amount of pranks we've pulled on set. He called me from Keegan's phone and I didn't have his number saved on my phone yet so I didn't recognize the number and when I answered it he pretended to be a really big fan and he scared the living crap out of me. My first question was "How did you get this number?" His answer was "Jared gave it to me! I'm Keegan, his costar on Walker!" I realized it was Jared at that point because Keegan realized Jared had stolen his phone and taken it from him and apologized for him and I laughed and told him it was fine and that I was used to it because Jared does it all the time. Then he actually fanboyed over me." She giggled.

 "Thank you for your question, Birthday Girl. Come up here so we can give you your birthday hugs." Jared told her and she squealed and her mom walked her to the stage and then she let her come on the stage and over to us herself and I lifted her up and Jared and I squished her between us before setting her back down and handing her a donut before handing her to mom. "Next question?"

Alright. Last update for today. Enjoy. I have to go shoot off some fireworks! Whoop! Whoop!
XO
-Ry