Talia

i

"talia are you dressed yet?" lilia, my roommate asks as she rushes around the room throwing things and slamming doors.

"what're you in fucking rush for?" i question, walking out of the bathroom as i fastened the back of my earring. i sighed pulling down the dress lilia forced me to wear because it 'showed off my figure'. whatever the fuck that's supposed to mean.

i sat at my desk, pulling on a pair of socks before pulling on my blazers, not feeling like dressing up more than i have to.

"because i told atlas i'd meet him at the club at eleven thirty and it's already ten forty-five."

i rolled my eyes and rested my head against my palm. "i thought you guys broke up. or is it just this week?"

"ha ha very funny t."

i smiled and stood up, stretching. "let's get this show on the road. i wanna get this night over with."

lilia grabbed her purse and linked her arm with mine. "come on talia don't be such a downer, you could meet someone tonight."

"i'd rather die."

"at least live a little. i'm tired of seeing you do nothing but feed yourself adderall and xanax."

i glared sharply at lilia as i clenched my jaw. "you now i haven't touched that shit in months."

lilia looked at me as she rolled her eyes and walked away, unlinking our arms. "i saw you last week talia, you downed it with a bottle of hennessy. i might be stupid but i'm not blind."

i rolled my eyes and huffed. "whatever let's just hurry up and go so i can get the fuck home and sleep."

my life hasn't always been rainbows and unicorns. since i was little i was around this shit. drugs, alcohol, you name it, it was there. my parents..generic assholes who don't give a fuck about anyone but themselves. dad constantly had affairs. mom caught on and drowned herself in alcohol. dad got into trouble and ended up in jail, came out hooked on meth. got mom hooked on meth and boom, the rest is history.

as for me, i only ever started adderall to focus on school and the xanax to help me sleep. and i occasionally mix the two with whatever alcohol i can find to sleep.

i snapped out of daze feeling a cold rush of air hit my bare arms. i looked up seeing lilia had left the door open and walked down the hall. "you fucking little..." i muttered under my breathe before following after her, closing and locking the door to our dorm before walking outside and to the uber.

i crawled inside and sat beside lilia as she told the driver where to go. i tried ignoring the shitty pop music playing out if the speakers as i looked out the window, watching the quiet night come alive.

"i'm sorry. i just worry about you talia, drugs kill people." lilia spoke sympathetically as she touched my fingers. i turned and looked her, giving her the 'are you fucking kidding me' eyes.

"lilia, do you think i'm an idiot?" i asked as i stared at her. her mouth was agape as her cheeks blushed a bright pink. "n-no of course not t."

"you act like i've never seen you and atlas get high on god knows what and fuck like two horny catholics."

lilia huffed and crossed her arms as she looked out the window. "i said i was sorry for waking you up.." she muttered which caused me to stifle a laugh. "it's alright lil, but next time you wanna fuck your boyfriend just, warm me? or wake me up and tell me to get lost." lilia nodded and continued looking out the window.

i chuckled seeing her get red and quiet with embarrassment. just as i was about to turn back and look out the window,the uber came to stop, signaling we reached our destination. i hopped out of the car and inhaled a deep breath. "god i lobe the smell of drug and sex!" i moaned dramatically.

lilia turned and looked at me with a raised brow as she handed the driver cash before walking over to me. "kidding." i said as i looked at her. "dumbass." she shook her head as she walked to the entrance of the club, me in toll. not even five feet from the eyes landed on two guys. one of them smoking what i assume is a cigarette and handing the other guy a small packet. and the other guy discretely(in his mind) taking the packet and shoving it into his pocket before smiling over at us.

"hey baby." the guy called out just as the other with the cigarette walked back inside the bustling club. lilia ran over, a smile on her face as she kissed the guys cheek. "hi handsome~" she cooed causing me to audibly gag as i walked past the couple. lilia rolled her eyes as she secretly nudged me and motioned 'handsome'.

i rolled my eyes and let out a sigh. "hey atlas." i spoke before opening the club door and stepping inside. atlas chuckled and sucked his teeth before looking down at lilia. "talia hasn't changed." lilia hummed as she hugged her boyfriend. "you know how she is. she just needs to get fucked so she can stop being such a debbie downer." atlas hummed as he walked inside with lilia.

once inside i made a beeline for the bar. i need a shot..or three. once at the bar i ran a hand through my hair before ordering. "three shots of patron." the bartender nodded and in about a minute i had three shots lined up in front of me. i let out a relaxing sigh before taking shot after shot.

once i set the final glass down, i rolled my shoulders and hummed. the music started to blur together and become a mess of boosted bass and slurred words. i hated coming to clubs for reasons like this. everyone from school was there and they were all doped up and drunk to function. the whole club smells of sex and sweat.

i grimaced as i squeezed past all the sweaty bodies needing to go to the bathroom as the shots went right through me. the low buzz of my head slowly died down, causing me to hear the music once again, hearing that chase atlantic's "you too" played through the speakers.

just as i made my way through the crowd, i stumbled upon the guy from outside. the smell of cigarette smoke radiating off his body along with some cheap ass cologne.

"what's your name?" he asked, clearly high as a fucking kite.

"talia." i reply, intrigued.

"wanna get high with me talia?"

"... i don't even know your name."

"raine, wanna do molly with me talia?"