I'm casually sitting under a pine tree while eating my ice cream and suddenly a loud honk stopped me from daydreaming and look at the direction of where the sound came from.
There's a tall guy with a handsome familiar figure is running towards me. He's wearing a black mask while his also wearing a red cap and a headset around his neck. "I'm sorry but may I know who you are?" I asked him but he was just staring at something.
But then I figured out what is he looking at, it was the photo card of my favorite idol, Park Jihoon. "You know him? You're eyes actually kinda look alike." I sweetly said at giggled. I heard him chuckle, they also have the same chuckle as Jihoon tho.
I've been wishing for Jihoon's clone, is this the day? Kidding, I'm still in the stage where I need to accept that I'm just his fangirl, though I kept thinking about what does it feel to be beside him or what does it feel like to hold his hand and hug him.
I guess that will be the happiest day of my life.
"I know him." he answered. "Maybe he's your twin, you have the same voice too." I joked but it's real that they have a same voice. "Because," I look at him as soon as he said that, he slowly remove his mask and the outcome was really unexpected.
I almost let go of my ice cream but thanks god I didn't. "P-Park Jihoon?" I stutter. "Thank you for idolizing me, I really appreciate it." he thanked me and smiled before putting his mask again.
"May I ask why are you here?" I asked him. "A group of girls suddenly run towards me but I don't have any bodyguards with me, I can't take the crowd all by myself." he has a point tho. Those sasaengs are really frustrating, if only I can beat them up, I would really do it.
"I'm gonna go now, I called the staff already and they going to pick me up." he said again. My face become sad and my eyes become teary. "You're going already?" I asked and he nodded.
"Jihoon." I called him. "Yes?"
"Before you go, I just want to tell you that you did a great job for making us happy and I also want to tell you that you deserve everything, your awards, the love, and support from us, you deserve it. I want to see you grow and improve until the end, I will always be your number one supporter. I hope soon when you're not an idol anymore, you'll find somebody who's really lucky to have you and I want you to be lucky for having her too, love each other and support her more than we support and love you. Always remember that when you are performing, I'm one of the people waving my lightstick for you and your group."
We both become teary after I said that. "Thankyou, I won't forget this day and I promise I won't forget everything that you've said." I saw his eyes smiled one more time before he run away.
I'm crying, not because of sadness, but because of happiness.
I finally said the things I badly want to say to him every time I see him o the internet having a bad day.
I want him to know he is worth it and I want to make him happy because he makes me happy too. He became my comfort zone and my home. I can't tell that I'm his home too, but I'm happy that I'm one of those because he said that his fan is his happiness and that's enough for me.
Being a fan girl is not easy, you can fall in love anytime with your idol and that's sometimes a mistake for us fangirls.
But slowly, we can finally be happy for them thinking that we are not the girl that is destined to be with them and destined for them. Just like normal people, there will be a right person that they'll find and will suit them perfectly.
I'm now accepting the fact that I'm just his fangirl.
