TW:Mentions of death, anxiety, and panic attacks.
(Picture up top is me(right) and my friend dee(left or the one in the hellfire shirt)
Hey hey. So uh some seriously dark shit is happening in my life kinda sucks ngl.
My mother is in the hospital and is only expected to live a few more days. She's been battling with stage 4 cancer for a long time she's "beat" it twice but its come back and this time is much much worse.
I've always had pretty bad anxiety but it's been getting so much worse. I've had a panic attack every day this week. I'm just so scared of what's going to happen. I'm not ready to lose my mother she means the world to me. I went to go see her a few days ago and she took one look at me and started crying. She looked so scared not once have I even seen her look as sacred as she did that day.
On a slightly more positive note.. I started exploring my sexuality and gender again. And I think I've finally somewhat figured out who I am. I am panromantic. Meaning I love every no matter of gender just not in a sexual kinda way. And I am trans and I use he/it pronouns. Please don't come at me and tell me that it/it's aren't pronouns and that I cant use them. They are neopronouns and they are what me feel comfortable. No you don't have to use them he/him are just fine but please still be respectful.
I dont really have anything else to say. My life is kinda shit rn but other than that I'm trying my best to make it through!
(In no way am I trying to seek attention by writing this but I just seriously need to get somewhere no one for real life can find.)
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!~Life Updates~!
AdventureThis book used to be a bkdk oneshot book, but has been converted to a life updates book it's not that interesting but is definitely better than the cringey writing that was here before
